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Julissa Calderon is Manifesting that Sh*t with Love

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Actress Julissa Calderon explains how she's elevating her game with her career moves, faith, and representation as an Afro-Latina.
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Most shows, they do not rewrite characters, they rewrote
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the characters.
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It's huge.
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So that's like a big deal.
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Like that wasn't, that wasn't just my first.
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Yes, that was a big yes.
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What's up?
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Welcome to another episode of Girl.
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Let me tell you, I'm Jessica Flores.
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I'm more and I'm Ivanna Rojas and girl, let me tell you, I haven't
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been here for 11 days in this country and it feels like three
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months.
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I haven't all about your Instagram story.
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You'll be, you'll be finding the right filters.
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I don't know.
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I think what she meant was, you know, your angles, everything
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you post is really aesthetic.
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I will say because you know, different people have their brands
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Some girls wake up and they're like this is it.
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And then I think you're just very like you're on, it's editorial
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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My my shit is not editorial.
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My shit.
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I don't even know how to use the camera on the iphone.
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If I'm being honest, I'm the friend that takes back and I'm
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just saying like, you know, when you actually take a picture
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of you, like, I'm the friend that takes like a bad photo because
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I don't know all the features on my iphone.
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Do you take good pictures of people?
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Yes.
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I feel like I feel like you do and the filters.
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I'm, like 45 years old.
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Like, it's time I need to do a really good job.
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Like, if I needed somebody to take a pic of me, I'd probably
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ask you, do you take good pictures of people, like of tourists
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on the, on the sidewalk?
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I give them a lot of options because you know, people talk shit
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about you.
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Like if you don't take a good picture, like you walk away and
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they're like, oh and I would hate to be on the other side of that
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conversation.
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I know but I give it my all.
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I try my best or whatever.
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But you have been traveling girl.
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What have you been like, name it off?
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No, I just went to Mexico City.
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My sister moved there.
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So I was showing her the rope because I lived there for a whole
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year during COVID and her and her fiance, who's this Australian
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guy?
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He's moving there to learn Spanish because if you want to be
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part of our family, you got to know Spanish or you can't be part
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of our family.
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You know, we're gonna be left out of every single thing.
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I got to learn my spa.
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I gotta fix my Spanish so I could be part of your, your chickens
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have been maturing and improving she's a mother.
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I am a mother of eight now.
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I, 686.
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No, rooster.
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No, in where I live I can't have rooster.
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Why not?
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Because they're too loud in the morning.
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So, so how do they have, do they have eggs are periods?
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Right.
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Oh, my God.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Like when, when egg hatches the sense that I never thought
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you shaming?
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Yeah.
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Your mom shaming.
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I don't appreciate that safe space.
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I think the eggs are getting hatched.
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So I just thought they just laid eggs but I never thought of
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it in the sense of it being a period.
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I just thought they had just laid eggs.
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I never sat there and thought, hm, they're having their period
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Did you know, did the Tampa episode recently?
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But I want to ask and I feel like this might be on some people's
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minds.
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Are you going to eat the eggs?
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So, ok.
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That's a really good question.
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Because is that weird?
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Right.
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Because those are my kids.
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But in short, yes.
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Wait.
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Is that unethical?
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I've never had chicken.
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Well, back, you never had egg.
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First of all, I used to have like a little chicken.
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Everyone has a chicken in the, but you never see them ever again
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You see that one trip, you go in the summer, you leave them there
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Yeah.
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So I'm not going to be eating my chicken, but I'm going to have
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the eggs.
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How many eggs do they?
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So, they've only hatched a total of six.
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We're working on it.
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It's good in this economy having eggs at home.
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Are they organic eggs?
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I mean, I believe so because I know exactly where they're coming
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from.
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I'm picking them up from the chicken coop, but it does kind
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of, I don't know why.
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I don't know if other people have chicks for whatever reason
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Eating the chicken eggs.
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Feels weird to me.
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I mean, I'm not, I'm not there yet.
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I haven't you bonded with the chicken and now you're eating
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it?
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I mean, I know it's almost like there's a little bit more of
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a disconnect when you buy the eggs from the store.
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It's so close to home right now.
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I'm working on it though.
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I will get through that.
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Have you eaten a chicken already?
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I mean, have you eaten one?
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Not from my chicken?
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She just said that.
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Oh, I'm sorry, I'm, I'm turning 33 next year.
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Oh, my hearing actually my hearing is problematic.
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Remember I can never hear anything.
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Ok.
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So how do you like your eggs?
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Scrambled fries?
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Jess just bought a trailer for the back of her truck.
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She's going to drive to Texas.
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She can come out there.
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So a trailer.
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So you think like RV or like life?
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I tried doing the van conversion but then my dad ended up buying
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that off me.
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So I bought a trailer that I could haul.
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It has a shower, a bed and a shower.
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Oh, it has everything.
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It's a closet like it, it's a, it's a full blown self sustain
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And I'm going to, I'm going on tour by myself.
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No chicken run tour.
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Yeah.
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But I want to hit all the country states.
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I want to go to all the national parks.
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Like, I'm going to do it just, it's kind of like a eat pray love
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kind of thing.
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Yeah.
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That's pray hatch hatch.
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I'm not taking my chickens with me though.
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I'm gonna miss them.
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My mom will take care of them.
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Well, so you, you went to Mexico, you went to H and M, you know
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I usually don't sit this close to you.
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That energy.
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Usually the energy takes like two seconds to travel, but it's
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right here.
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Damn, I did.
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I had a, I had a breakdown in the fitting room of a retail store
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that hasn't sponsored this podcast yet, but they're open
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to II.
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I had a breakdown at H and M because nothing fit I think has gone
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through that.
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Like you think you're a small but you're like an extra large
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Ok.
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Personally, I fluctuate a lot like one week, I will be one size
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in the next week or two weeks later.
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I will be a complete multiple sizes up or down just depending
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and it is heartbreaking.
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It was in that room.
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Is that the light is so bad.
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It's directly above.
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I thought like you see everything that I don't know what industry
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the fitting rooms are for because it makes you not want to shop
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there.
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I'm like, do you want me to buy this or not?
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That's my work on that.
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And my friend was really nice.
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You know, I never realized when you go shopping, you really
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do need a friend to be there to pull other outfits for you because
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I was in that fitting room having a panic attack and she was
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like, you know what Gloria, this is the size you're at and we're
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going to work with it and I'm working my confidence.
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I, I'm at a size.
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Um but I'm going to work on it and I feel confident, I feel better
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I don't know if you guys know I'm always looking at myself in
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the camera to make sure I look good, but I'm working on the confidence
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in real time.
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So I think you're doing good.
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And again, no matter whether I'm on an upper or a lower in regards
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to my weight, there's going to be something that will flatter
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you.
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You just have to find it and figure out what works like.
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That's what I'm working on.
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And my thing is a I'm wearing right now, but I will say, I think
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it's also we were talking in the fitting room.
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I mean, not that I'm traumatized.
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Oh my God in the green room.
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Oh my God.
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We're talking about sometimes how our lifestyle kind of affects
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like where we end up and I'm in stand up comedy, so I'm having
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a beer every single day.
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It's I should start adding up and you're, yeah, you're like
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on stage like confronting your fears like it's all ready to
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go.
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So, girl, I'm proud of you.
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All right, you guys.
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So we have a new girlfriend who's going to be joining us in La
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Salle today who's going to be giving us a healthy dose of love
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on her portrayal on the Amazon Prime series with Love.
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Check it out girl, can you guys tell the two Dominicans or you're
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in the same?
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Literally, this is not planned.
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This is not, it's like east Coast attitude is usually I'm the
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one wearing black on set, you know, it really mean to be right
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But I'm really, well, personally, I'm really excited Julia
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you're one of the Dominican women doing it out here right
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now when I Google Dominican actress Julia Calm.
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So it's really dope to see you having you here on the podcast
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Um How was your audition process for the Fight and with Love
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Um They were interesting.
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Both of them were very different, actually, completely different
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with, with Love.
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I didn't audition.
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I was offered it.
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Let's go, let's go, let's go your work though, right?
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And just knowing the right people like my network.
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So yeah.
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So with Love, I did an audition and then the complete opposite
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happened with Hen hen, I got passed on twice.
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Ew, I know I am I gonna say that OK, pass on.
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What does that mean?
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Like they passed on me twice.
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So I went for the audition initially and there was a no.
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Um and then I got called back for a producer session and they
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were like, yeah, but no.
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Um and then the day right before chemistry reads, they called
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again and they were like, we think we want to see her one more
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time.
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And I was like, that's so weird because obviously as an actress
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you know, like they don't, that's not how it works.
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Excuse me.
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That's not how it works.
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That's not the process.
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So it was a very interesting thing.
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And then, I mean, the thing was they were, they wanted a Mexican
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girl, they wanted a black second girl.
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So you just defeated all.
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So I just, that wasn't me.
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I mean, I guess the look because I've seen a lot of black Mexican
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girls that look like me.
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But then when I open my mouth, they're like, no, no, I mean,
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we can, we can, I can hear the Dominican.
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I was like, oh my God, that affected you before in any job, it
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affects me every day.
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I feel like in every audition and everything.
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I don't get it.
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Um I think like, I think you could be whoever the hell you want
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to be, right?
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This is all fiction.
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So I, I sometimes don't get it.
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Especially coming from a place where to me, I never had an accent
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I was like, I got an accent.
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Like, what do you mean?
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How do I sound like that?
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Like II I tend to always get auditions too for like the black
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girl next door, the African American girl next door and then
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they're like, girl, you ain't black and I'm like, but I am black
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you know what I mean?
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So it's like it's a game I'm still new to the Los Angeles scene
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and I'm learning that it's very different from the east coast
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and you know, I'm learning that a lot of Latini and we talk about
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it on the podcast like sometimes it is a little exclusionary
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of the Caribbean experience.
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Do you ever feel like, do you ever get like upset in your process
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Which seems like, you know, you're trying your best to hold
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your head up and be grateful but maybe you're like, ok, well
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bitch, it's Dominicans out here too.
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Do you ever feel like you want to talk to a cast member?
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I want to tell them whenever I have a chance, I want to talk to
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them and tell them about themselves.
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But you know, in keeping it like positive and trying to be like
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you know what they just haven't caught on yet.
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Um You're just like, you know what you're gonna do the do and
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you're just gonna put your head down and you're gonna do the
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work until they see because talent gonna come out though,
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regardless, they're gonna, they're gonna see it regardless
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So you gotta put the Dominicans like there were some things
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going down this year.
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The past year, I was like, I'm not Dominican and I don't even
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I don't even audition.
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I'm like, I'm gonna let a Dominican audition for the, I, I've
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seen a lot of Afro Latina roles coming through.
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Now, I've seen Dominican roles coming through and that is
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a testament to like we're not moving as fast as obviously we
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wanted to go, but it's moving and I think it's really cool because
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in your story, right, you can also talk about how you helped
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trail that like you're gonna be, you're gonna be the person
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that younger girls are going to say, well, you know, this is
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someone that I looked up to that helped pave the way for me.
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And that's, I think that has even more power to your story if
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you want me to be honest.
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So you want to go home and you have those moments where oh, like
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this sucks.
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Oh my gosh, they passed me up.
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But down the line, you're going to feel that much more amazing
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when people are saying your name and you know, saying your
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name in interviews like this be saying Julia's name already
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like for like the past three years and so many things like for
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the and we'll talk about it later, but other things that you
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do.
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But before this, when did you get kind of like your, your click
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that you want to be an actress and you can be in that fight with
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him was curious, like what your journey was to your first big
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thing?
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Well, first, thank you, Jess.
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I'm gonna keep that with me.
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Like whenever I feel down, I'm gonna be like, it's hard.
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I don't, I never think about that stuff.
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I never think about Trail Blazy.
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I never think about, I do think about the girls coming after
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me.
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Like that's something that I want to pave the way obviously
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but you don't think about that on the day to day.
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Um I don't want to be an actress all my life, my family, nobody's
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surprised like they were like, hi Julie.
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That's like obviously, I was like a growing up I put on shows
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for my family.
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You were that person in the living room, charging your family
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members to perform, doing ridiculous.
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Like I would my brothers talk about it all the time how I would
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like set up like people in my room, people doors in my room,
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right?
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And talk to the people that were dolls.
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So you set the dos that are playing with them.
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That is your audience.
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They were my audience.
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I talked to them.
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I talked to the mirror like it was just a thing that I did.
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Um I think about it now.
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And I'm like, that's a little crazy, but that's the crazy thing
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you kind of need in Hollywood that you were in.
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Yeah, they broke the biggest rule because in most shows they
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do not rewrite characters, they rewrote the character.
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It's also really challenging in stand up, like being one of
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the only like you're leading this space and reminding, having
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to teach people what is Dominican.
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And I think that your story earlier about the five people calling
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you back, I feel like they loved you.
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And I think they were like, you know what?
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Fuck it.
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I'm going to break all they know you, they, they broke the biggest
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rule because in most shows, they do not rewrite characters
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they rewrote the character.
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Oh That's huge.
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That's like a big deal.
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Like that wasn't, that wasn't just my first.
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Yes, that was a big, yes, that was like, OK, you're so good that
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we're going to take away the story line.
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We're going to rewrite a whole episode.
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We're going to write stuff down that we didn't know about and
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make her be a girl who moved from New York, from Washington
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Heights to Boyle Heights like they really did.
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Where is Boyle?
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He?
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That's in L A literally right here, which is like a huge feat
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How was it working with Latinos that weren't Dominican?
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You're from Miami.
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They were like all Mexican Americans.
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How was that experience for you?
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Um I feel like, I've been in L A for a while now.
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You're used to it at this point.
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And I'm like, it is what it is.
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We're very different for sure.
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I think starting my life here, I worked a lot in restaurants
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as most people do when they try to be in Hollywood.
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I was a waitress.
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And so for me, I got my first dose of Mexicans.
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Right?
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Like talking to the back of the house.
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Everybody's Mexican in all honesty.
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It was the way that I practice my Spanish.
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Like now I speak, I mean, I've always spoke fluent Spanish
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but you know, like I was, I was literally, I was gonna ask like
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finish this story.
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I, I have a question for you.
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But so I, I would talk to them in Spanish because that's one
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it was my way of getting things that I wanted.
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Um But you know, you like whatever this is going on and then
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of course, because you're talking their language, they feel
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comfortable and they're going to help you out.
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So I did that.
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But also for me, I was like, oh, this is just helpful for me and
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to get to know y'all and you get to know me.
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I was doing some research and there was a point I think you said
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you forgot your Spanish around college and you had a friend
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that you guys would practice.
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Also practice with.
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Do you ever feel I personally my two cohos speak very great
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Spanish.
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But my shit, well, better not me.
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My Spanish is butchered all the time, especially when I don't
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talk for a while.
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It gets bad, bad.
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So, you know, I feel like you were in the interview, you were
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saying how speaking Spanish is really important to Latini
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It's OK if you don't speak it and you're not fluent, but it is
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important.
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And how did you feel like when you did?
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I guess when you lost it for a little bit because I think mine
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right now I'm practicing with my co-host.
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We're practicing Duolingo and I feel like ashamed that sometimes
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my Spanish is bad, especially Dominican because I don't know
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many Dominicans that don't speak Spanish.
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I do speak Spanish.
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I'm just nervous.
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I hate my accent.
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I hate like, I feel like sometimes when you're Dominican I
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you're a little Dominican that's a different personality
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and I don't know the Dominican.
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There's no end to the half of the word's gone it very fast.
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It really like when I listen to my ex boy speak, he was Dominican
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and I'd just be like, he's talking to me.
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I'm on the phone and I'll be like, OK, I caught none of that with
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love.
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Are you Dominican on that show?
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That's so cool.
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I, I say it on episode four, I say that as well.
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So the fact that they're just writing in some Dominican, like
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again, you're making the space and you identified you a reoccurring
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role and for this one, you, you kind of have a chunkier, more
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lively role.
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I feel like how was it moving from a reoccurring to kind of like
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a, a center role?
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Yeah.
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Um, I had no idea.
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Like Gloria hit me up at, actually Gloria told me at the premiere
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of season one.
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She was like, guess what?
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And I was like, what?
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She's like, we're writing you in and this episode four is going
16:44
to be about you and you getting married and all these different
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things.
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And I was like, shut up and she's like, yeah, for sure.
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Um And Andy Ross was also the co creator and writer on the show
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He was like, we just love writing for you.
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And that's a white man, right?
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That's a testament like you just, I mean, obviously, you know
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you don't need validation, but those things are validated
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and it helps you, it helps you be like, you know what, I'm going
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to keep moving forward.
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I'm gonna keep pushing because clearly somebody likes something's
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happening.
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I wanted to finish.
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So I wanted to finish, I wanted to, let's get to it just for like
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a second.
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And what pushed you to be like, besides obviously making your
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family proud, like what pushed you be like, I got to get the
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Spanish on point, you know what I did it by mistake.
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But it was one like to the question that you asked earlier.
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Like, did you feel ashamed?
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How did you feel about it?
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I was in, I was in college so I didn't care that I didn't really
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know it.
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But my best friend in college was another Dominican girl.
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Mind you?
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I went to the University of Florida.
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This is a predominantly white school, 50,000 kids.
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Right?
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To find another Dominican girl is like a needle in a haystack
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So we, like, ended up just really clicking and just becoming
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best friends.
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And how else I'm gonna talk about people.
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Exactly.
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Exactly.
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Exactly.
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And I talk about, I can talk shit about when they don't give
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me something.
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We found that that was our little thing.
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And then when I got to L A was when I really like, tweaked it because
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I was speaking in Spanish.
18:10
So now, like, I'm so confident I could go into, I mean, I've
18:13
done many interviews in Spanish, like I'm cool with it now
18:15
before.
18:16
I don't know that I would have, I would have been like, oh my
18:19
God.
18:19
But I'm gonna, I can Spanglish be out there.
18:22
That's like a Selena moment that is so happy.
18:28
But it's true.
18:28
Like once you practice it, you do pick up on it and I've lost
18:31
opportunities because my Spanish wasn't perfect.
18:33
So, in an industry that, you know, you're pursuing something
18:36
in the arts or anything creative or even host, I practice your
18:40
Spanish.
18:41
Like I wish I, no, that's so true because I got hit up.
18:44
I hosted in 2020 which was such a big deal.
18:50
That's huge, right?
18:51
And the first question they asked when they reached out was
18:53
does she speak Spanish confidently?
18:56
Like?
18:57
And then you feel so good.
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I've been like, it's Spanglish.
19:03
OK.
19:04
This is a straight Latin award.
19:07
Yeah, you can't do that.
19:08
They would have criticized, you dragged on the video.
19:10
I was talking, I was talking like a host.
19:17
I was the celebrity host.
19:20
But what I didn't want to ask you about was this incredible
19:24
thing that you have created.
19:25
This is your company Manifest.
19:27
That shit.
19:31
We can, we can dream and manifest and man, but that's what I
19:36
always called Manifest that.
19:38
OK, tell us about this and how did it come about?
19:40
That's such a big deal.
19:41
So before we talk about it, can I just say that I brought you
19:44
guys something?
19:45
What?
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No, no.
19:50
Yeah, I really, I love, thank you.
20:07
This is the best thing I want to get and zoom in on this go pages
20:12
So thank you.
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Thank you so much.
20:14
So this is the, this is the first journal because I, I I anticipate
20:19
that it's going to be more than one different seasons.
20:23
Manifest that husband for me in the future.
20:26
I mean, the I could be everything right?
20:28
It's like whatever you want.
20:30
Um So yeah, this was something that I thought of.
20:33
I've been journaling.
20:34
I'm a serial journal.
20:35
I've been journaling for 14 years.
20:36
I literally talked about on the first episode and I fell off
20:39
but maybe this is a sign to get back on it.
20:41
14 years.
20:42
I've been writing, but I didn't know what I was doing, right
20:45
It was like the diary.
20:46
And so in 2020 was when I was like, I want to do this, like I want
20:51
to bring something out.
20:52
I wanted to step into also being an entrepreneur.
20:55
I was like, what that looks like.
20:56
And I think, you know, when we talk about entrepreneurship
20:58
specifically, like you got to have funds, like you just can't
21:01
jump into it.
21:02
And luckily I had the funds.
21:04
So I was like, well, I need to reach out to my spouse.
21:06
And so it was just so spot on and that is freaking amazing.
21:10
And I know you're very spiritual.
21:11
I know you're a God fearing woman, which I love you pray to God
21:14
a lot.
21:14
And I love that you're able to even speak to him as somebody
21:16
that as well, like I, I try to have as best of a relationship
21:20
as I can with him.
21:21
This is something I can speak to him through.
21:23
You know, for me like journaling, you know, these are just
21:25
written prayers, at least for me, right?
21:27
Everybody might do whatever they want to do and whoever they
21:29
want to talk to universe, whatever to me as God.
21:32
I'm like, I'm writing to you, you know what's going on, I'm
21:33
putting this on paper so you can see my heart so you can see what
21:36
I want.
21:37
I truly believe in the power of manifestation and what are
21:40
you manifesting right now?
21:41
Um I'm manifesting my own TV show because I think it's about
21:46
time you heard it.
21:48
Um I think it's about time.
21:49
I'm manifesting a success of a second journal that I guess
21:53
we could talk about it.
21:54
Um I have not talked about it yet but a second journals coming
21:57
in August and I'm really excited about that.
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We'll save it.
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Yeah, we'll save it.
22:02
But yeah, I'll make sure to send it to you that this has been
22:06
out almost two years now.
22:08
And so I'm just manifesting that it does bigger and better
22:10
Like I went on a six city tour with this journal and it was just
22:14
oh, we got to take the trailer, the trailer.
22:17
Yeah, I'll let you.
22:20
We're not taking the chicken.
22:22
I have sorry not to cut this conversation, but I do have one
22:25
question before we move on.
22:27
Um I think that you're doing a lot like you're an entrepreneur
22:29
you're an actress.
22:30
Do you ever feel like you're not like maybe from your vantage
22:33
point?
22:33
Because for us, I'm like, you're amazing.
22:35
Do you ever feel like you're not doing enough?
22:37
And how do you battle maybe journaling is one of those tools
22:40
you have?
22:40
But how do you, how do you battle or manage when you feel like
22:43
those moments where like, damn, like I kind of suck.
22:45
I wish I had a TV show or like you're stagnant.
22:47
You're not doing enough.
22:48
How do you break out of that mind?
22:50
I think, I think you're not human.
22:51
If you say supposedly you don't have these thoughts.
22:54
I don't ever say that I suck.
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Um Because I do think words have power.
22:58
Um I also think that whatever you think subconscious, your
23:01
subconscious doesn't really know what you'll be thinking
23:03
like for real.
23:04
So if you really say you, you suck, your subconscious is picking
23:07
up on you suck.
23:09
You know what I'm saying?
23:09
And so you start moving and your energy is like that.
23:11
But I do have those moments.
23:13
I do have that where I'm like, damn, I'm not doing enough.
23:15
And then sometimes 11 of the things that I do, whatever, one
23:22
of the things that I do and it might be super vain, but I don't
23:24
share it.
23:24
I literally go through my Instagram like I'll go back, right
23:27
And then I'll go from like when I was wishing and praying for
23:30
this and I'm seeing the journey and how it evolved and I'm like
23:34
dang and I'm looking at comments and every comments of people
23:36
saying like, oh my God, you're my favorite.
23:38
You're this, I look up to see you all this stuff and it does do
23:40
something for you for sure.
23:42
My post archive.
23:43
So maybe I'll go through them.
23:44
I never thought about that.
23:45
Like, your Instagram is kind of like your memory journal of
23:49
everything.
23:49
Like, if I scrolled back at the things I was doing five years
23:52
ago, I'd be like, whoa.
23:53
Well, I'm ready to manifest some girlfriend chat because
23:56
I need to know everyone's thoughts on a few things.
23:59
Ok.
23:59
Right now I'm in something that is so slow burning and so healthy
24:04
that I'm like, I'm on a date.
24:06
I'm confused.
24:07
Punked.
24:08
So I need to know when a fast moving relationship felt good
24:13
and when it felt bad for you, um, I've had that I had, I think
24:18
Right.
24:18
I think we all do.
24:19
We have those things where you're like, you meet somebody
24:21
and you're like, so, yeah, this is it right now.
24:24
Let's get married tomorrow.
24:25
We're done.
24:26
I'm done.
24:29
What are your goals?
24:30
What's your 401k?
24:32
Are you still living with your mom?
24:34
What I, what I've noticed is I've had that for the past couple
24:38
of works.
24:38
It's gone so fast.
24:39
Like love bombing.
24:40
We in love.
24:41
This is it?
24:42
And then the fizzle out is like drastic and bad.
24:46
Right now I'm in something that is so slow burning and so healthy
24:51
that I'm like, am I on a day?
24:52
I'm confused.
24:55
I, am I bored or am I just like it just so that you start thinking
25:02
like, why don't I feel this spark right away?
25:04
And then I make a problem, like, what's going on with us.
25:06
She's like, give me nothing.
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I'm like, exactly nothing.
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You know.
25:13
And then I'm like, I am the problem right now.
25:15
Yeah.
25:15
Yeah.
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Yeah.
25:16
I feel like that's like being Latina especially.
25:21
It's like, you know, your mom and dad are talking about churches
25:23
and it sounds like they're fighting.
25:24
Like that's just how it is.
25:25
Kind of like the way we talk is, like, passionate.
25:27
So with somebody that I'm with now it's so calm, so passive
25:30
so chill.
25:31
I find myself being like, ok, I want to have a little, little
25:34
spice but it's good not to like, I think that when we're on a
25:38
healing journey and we're healed too, sometimes it might
25:42
seem boring.
25:43
But that's because it's just good.
25:46
We're not used to that.
25:47
We're used to it being like that, right?
25:50
That being like what's going on and why you didn't ask about
25:52
this and this and why haven't I pass out and why haven't we argued
25:55
But that's actually healthy.
25:57
So I don't want anything fast friendship relationship because
25:59
I feel like if it's fast, if there's for a reason, something's
26:02
wrong and I didn't even click initially, have a ball with somebody
26:07
like I feel like we, man, I'm like, no, we Yeah.
26:11
So, but I learned that the faster maybe everyone's different
26:14
I, I also don't want to ruin anybody's love, whatever.
26:17
But for me, my last situation was really fast.
26:20
I'm like this is it.
26:21
And then like you said, when you walk up, I was like, wow, I hate
26:23
love because you got me.
26:26
I do think that damn, that's crazy.
26:28
We went dark real fast.
26:32
I do think that the faster you go, right, you get everything
26:35
out of the way and then you're like, well, if we got forever
26:37
to go, what are we going so far?
26:38
Like it's true.
26:40
Let's enjoy this ride.
26:42
And do you feel are you thinking about?
26:44
I mean, I'm not that we want to say our ages, but you think, do
26:47
you feel like I want to get married soon?
26:49
Like, do you feel like there's a time with career when we talk
26:52
about it all the time?
26:53
It's like, ok, you feel that society pressure?
26:55
I love that career woman.
26:56
We put our passions there in the forefront, which is, it's
26:58
an amazing thing.
26:59
But you do obviously work women.
27:01
I don't want to speak on all women.
27:02
But at least for me, it's like, that's definitely something
27:04
I think about.
27:04
I'm like, oh, I would love that one day.
27:06
Do you ever think about?
27:08
I want to get married tomorrow.
27:12
Say that again.
27:13
No.
27:13
You know what?
27:15
Actually, thanks for asking Manifest, husband, manifest
27:19
husband or the wife or whatever.
27:22
You know what though?
27:23
Real talk, real talk.
27:25
I feel like before there was like back in the day, it was like
27:29
a certain age, right?
27:30
You had to do all of this by and then if you don't have babies
27:32
because obviously women, we have a biological clock.
27:35
That's a real thing.
27:36
But I recently saw something that calmed me down and it was
27:40
a gynecologist and another health care physician or someone
27:44
else.
27:44
I don't know what the hell it was, but they were talking about
27:47
how the age that they've done these, like this research on
27:52
biological women has been, is so outdated.
27:55
So like the women back in the day are not the same kind of women
27:58
Now, they weren't working out, they weren't eating healthy
28:02
they weren't doing all of these different things like us
28:03
now.
28:04
And so that clock is not really a thing anymore.
28:07
If it is, it's after like past 40 it's even past that.
28:11
Like, you see so many women having kids and you're like, how
28:15
old are they?
28:15
Some high at 41?
28:19
Like everybody, everybody is at 40.
28:22
And so when you see that you're like, oh, let me not focus on
28:26
that instead, let me focus on the right partner and myself
28:29
so that I don't end up with the kid.
28:31
And when the baby is 10 years old, the kid is 10 years old and
28:33
now we're like, ok, we're going to get divorced.
28:35
That's kind of my biggest fear now ending up with the wrong
28:37
man.
28:37
I'll be so tight.
28:38
But you, you won't, that's the biggest decision you're ever
28:41
going to make in your life.
28:42
Is who you have this kid with.
28:43
Not only are you both teaching them your morals, your values
28:46
your sharing energy with them, obviously, like, you know
28:49
DNA as well.
28:50
Like that's the thing too, obviously, all those things, like
28:53
it's the biggest decision and I do feel like honestly, sometimes
28:56
a lot of people take it very lightly.
28:57
I understand there's mistakes that happen like 100%.
29:00
But I think if you have the opportunity and I definitely, definitely
29:04
take it seriously.
29:05
This is a commitment, commitment even really look at who is
29:09
this person?
29:10
What do they stand for?
29:11
What do they believe in?
29:12
What do they want in still in my kid to me?
29:15
Do I trust this person to raise my child to be an outstanding
29:18
successful, good, whatever it is that you want to instill
29:21
in your kid like the ideals you want to instill in.
29:24
That's like the number.
29:26
I'm sorry.
29:27
Nobody is thinking about that.
29:28
A lot of people are not.
29:30
I was not thinking about this in my thirties.
29:32
I'm like this is very important to me.
29:34
A little crazy kid.
29:36
Yeah, like us.
29:44
She always point to me like they end up just like me.
29:50
What did I come?
29:52
You're amazing.
29:53
You really are.
29:54
I love, listen, what are some of your non negotiables?
29:58
What are some of my non negotiables?
29:59
You can't, you have to be a God fearing man.
30:02
Oh Yeah, baby.
30:04
That's not even a thought like don't talk to me because I'm
30:07
not because in every conversation we have, I'm going to talk
30:09
about God 100%.
30:10
Um So, and also I just feel like to me, the only person I'm scared
30:14
of in this world is God.
30:17
And so if you're not scared of nothing, what is your North Star
30:20
And what are you believing in?
30:21
And how are you moving in life?
30:23
You know what I mean?
30:23
You're not thinking about that.
30:25
And so that's my non.
30:26
So how do you have that conversation?
30:29
I'm just asking for other people that whatever that may be
30:32
like me, how do you have that conversation on the first date
30:35
It's like, do you believe I'm trying the first, do you believe
30:39
in God?
30:39
What do you say?
30:41
You believe in God?
30:42
I say it all right.
30:43
I don't know about you.
30:44
Are you usually though the men that I have all met usually talk
30:47
about it like, ok, here we go.
30:50
And if they get uncomfortable, when you do bring it up, then
30:52
then they're not, they're not because when you know, you
30:54
just know like you say like all my dating apps because I am on
30:58
the app and they let them know.
30:59
Shout out.
31:02
So I am on the dating apps on my bio.
31:04
It says this is, these are what I want.
31:06
I'm very straightforward when you're that.
31:08
Like when I got past a certain age, I was like, you know what
31:10
I'm not even going to just say, oh, looking for, I don't know
31:12
whatever.
31:13
No.
31:13
It's like this is what I'm looking for and if this isn't it,
31:16
I don't even care.
31:16
You can scroll to the left because that's a non-negotiable
31:19
for me now.
31:19
And it wasn't always like that again.
31:21
Like this is very recent that I had that encounter.
31:22
I think we were talking about it off mic.
31:24
But now that is like one of the first things I bring up and if
31:27
they're like, yeah, or wish she was here to get weird about
31:29
it, then it's like you're not my person because that has to
31:31
be number one moral values.
31:34
Everything is centered around that.
31:36
Yeah.
31:36
Yeah.
31:37
No, I couldn't agree because, so that's your non negotiable
31:40
That's my non negotiable.
31:42
I mean, one of my non negotiables for sure.
31:45
Yeah.
31:46
What else?
31:47
I mean, there's so many things I think you should make a list
31:53
I'm going to say this, I'm going to say this.
31:54
I'm still working in my relationship with God.
31:56
I pray every day and I feel like I'm in beta mode before the app
32:01
launches.
32:02
Like that's where I'm at.
32:03
So for me, I, I do, I have the free trial, right?
32:08
I, I haven't purchased the app yet, but I feel like for me, I
32:12
need a man and I think sometimes it is tied to God.
32:15
I need a man with a purpose if you don't know what your purpose
32:18
or why your why is.
32:19
But I think that if you have a spiritual compass, you'll find
32:22
that easier.
32:23
But a lot of the times people don't have that because they don't
32:24
have like a spirit compass, which he's an atheist, but he has
32:28
purpose.
32:28
What does that mean?
32:29
I don't know.
32:31
With my camera, I don't, I just don't, I just want my purpose
32:37
and I do want someone that has a spiritual belief, but I'm still
32:41
working on that for me.
32:42
So, you know how Jessica you're saying like you just got there
32:44
It wasn't, it wasn't always that way.
32:46
It's a journey for me.
32:47
Like I think when I think about marriage and a whole life with
32:50
someone, I'm not there yet.
32:52
I didn't, I'm turning 33 soon.
32:55
But I want someone that has a spiritual, some kind of spiritual
32:58
compass.
32:59
So that's where I'm at.
33:00
Yeah, I'm still developing.
33:02
I think when they do have that, you understand that your partner
33:05
is going to be grounded in morals because if he is, for instance
33:08
for, you know, her, for me, like, and you actually everybody
33:11
here, right?
33:12
That believes in God.
33:13
When you date someone that also feels him so deeply, you are
33:16
guided by him and his like law and his roles and his commandments
33:20
which naturally is going to push you to be a better person
33:22
You're going to feel more, you know, I don't sinful in a sense
33:26
like the closer, I got to God.
33:27
The more things that I would, you start, you start thinking
33:29
about that, you think about everything like he's watching
33:34
you're watching all the time and the enemy, listen, the enemy
33:38
is easy, right?
33:39
So many things come so easy when you, when you're not following
33:43
that line and, and like, and so when we talk about like temptation
33:47
because we talk about infidelity and all that stuff, right
33:48
When we talk about temptation, when we talk about things that
33:50
you shouldn't be doing things, you should be talking about
33:52
people that you should be talking about like you to me when
33:55
you do not follow God, it is, it is way easier to fall into that
33:59
because you don't have anything, anyone holding your kind
34:02
of thing holding your kind of to me, you're not convicted.
34:05
Like my spirit feels bad at the end of the day.
34:08
If something happens, right?
34:10
If I feel something, I wasn't always like this.
34:13
So I'm not gonna, that's why I I'm here for the girls that I'm
34:15
gonna get.
34:16
What made you get to this level.
34:18
I I've been on this journey for a while now.
34:20
Um like a year but in the last 67 months, I've been on a whole
34:26
different path like I'm moving like I'm fighting everything
34:32
off, right?
34:33
No spirit should form against me.
34:35
No weapon, no weapon, the weapon, you fight it off the weapon
34:40
Yeah.
34:40
Yeah.
34:40
Yeah.
34:40
I feel like the more you start getting closer, I have like a
34:44
study Bible and so I, a daily devotion and then I'll go to my
34:48
study Bible to go figure out what, what's like to break it down
34:52
a little bit more.
34:52
Right.
34:53
Um, and that to me has been something where, like, again I feel
34:57
convicted about things.
34:59
Like I'm like, oh, that's wrong.
35:01
Oh, this doesn't feel good.
35:02
I mean, I don't know if I can say this, I'll be honest.
35:04
Right?
35:04
Me and Ivana, we didn't have a thing but we had a thing because
35:08
of a mutual person.
35:10
And so no, we don't have, I don't have to go into details, but
35:20
I think she's a real one.
35:21
If she didn't talk about it, we hear about this for the first
35:25
time.
35:27
So we had a thing and then, and it wasn't even a thing.
35:32
There was no thing.
35:33
It was just energy that was felt between situ a situation that
35:37
neither of us even talked about.
35:37
We have never even spoken.
35:39
So it would just have nothing to do with me.
35:41
Anyone.
35:42
But what had happened was that she felt some type of way about
35:46
it and she gave me a call two days ago and was the guy I wanna set
35:49
things clear and make sure that, you know, we go in, in a very
35:51
like mutual fair way and I, she like apologized for her role
35:55
and, and I did too and it was like a, I thought I really admired
35:58
you for that.
36:01
She's like, I know that you were defending, you had one side
36:04
of the story and you were defending obviously a friend and
36:06
that's totally natural, you know what I mean?
36:08
But it was so to hear that I get that phone call because I was
36:11
just thinking you're going to ask me about the show.
36:13
So, yeah.
36:13
No, to me, I was just like, I got to apologize to this person
36:17
I'm going to be in her space like this is your show, you know
36:20
what I mean?
36:20
And so I'm stepping into that, I'm an outsider, I'm a visitor
36:23
And so as a visitor, if I'm stepping into your home, I'm going
36:26
to come with clean energy so that you and I both feel safe and
36:29
do you see and I'm telling you now everybody listening, you
36:31
have been in that situation, everybody on this couch has been
36:34
in that situation where you, you know, maybe your energy iffy
36:37
with someone or like there's some sort of miscommunication
36:39
It's an easy communication and phone call and sometimes maybe
36:43
the other person won't reciprocate and that's ok.
36:45
As long as like you said in bringing it back to feeling that
36:48
conviction to do the right thing, you feel your spirit, your
36:51
soul feels some type of way if you don't do that.
36:53
And I love that growth.
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And that's the thing that happened a few weeks ago.
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I've been feeling this.
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I don't normally do this.
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I got so much confidence.
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Well, are you?
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So, and so the and M thing ruined my life, but I used to lot of
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confidence.
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I don't watch what other people are doing.
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But recently, I don't know, I've been comparing myself and
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I did pray.
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I was like God, this weird energy taken out of my spirit.
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This is not who I am and I woke up better.
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I don't know if it was God or the stress gummies I took but it
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was God.
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It was God.
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When you start practicing and having a direct line with God
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or source, like the feeling that you have in your body is almost
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like an automatic answer.
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And when you're so clear, like I've had situations with even
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somebody that I'm dating now where something weird happens
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and my body literally just like automatically reject Jack
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And I have, I step away that but before I'd be like reacting
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or saying something that was coming out of no knowledge.
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Now I step away and I'm like, I'm looking, I'm respecting my
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body and honoring what I feel.
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And we can talk later when I figure out what it is because the
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universe is telling me.
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No.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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We think it's intuition, right?
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I call it Holy Spirit.
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It's the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit is talking
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to you.
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Holy Spirit is trying to ask a few more questions I know we have
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limited time with you, Julia.
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Oh my God.
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Who the fuck is Jessica?
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Oh Jessica.
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Jessica.
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No more wine.
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Y'all?
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Why that name stuck in my mind?
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I was like, oh my, I'm like, why are you turning 33 in a week?
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It again, you know, you know what I just want to say because
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you've been saying that I think you said it like 10 times at
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a time.
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You put like a little thing every time she said it maybe bring
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one out.
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What I will say is that 33 is your Jesus year and maybe there's
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a reason why you've been led to where you are led.
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And no, I'm releasing, I'm releasing what's going on and some
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of the other things I just want to ask a few more questions before
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Um, because I know we have limited time with you one in the first
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episode of this new season.
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I think her partner didn't want to, she was weary because her
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partner didn't want to commit.
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Right?
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So how do you deal?
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Well, anyone can answer, how do you deal with the man that you
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love?
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That isn't thinking about marriage.
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Some people's ultimate goal isn't marriage.
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So, would you still be in that relationship?
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Would you still be dating somebody if they didn't want to have
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married or kids?
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No.
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No, because, you know, some people do the whole like we're
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married.
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How do you feel about that?
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It's not going to change.
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You can't change somebody's mind like that doesn't happen
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And so, or you can, right.
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But then how long are you willing to go through that?
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And so for me, it's just like, if you're not excited about something
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like with me, then we don't need to be together.
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That's so true.
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That's kind of where I'm at too.
39:26
I wasn't like, I guess when you're younger it's different
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I'm like, I'm not in that mentality either, but when you're
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in that mentality and you know, that's what you want, then
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it's just an easy, well, it's not always easy, right?
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But for me, because I'm single and I don't have any baggage
39:36
with anybody at the moment.
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I'm just like, well, ok, we're headed in different directions
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and it's cool.
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I'm sure, you know, we're a great vibe but that's it.
39:42
You, you move forward.
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I'm not going to waste my time.
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I'm not going to waste my time.
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How do you?
39:46
This is kind of out of nowhere but how do you protect your people
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Peace.
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Because I know you have so many things that are going on around
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you.
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Evolving, you're traveling, you're working.
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How do you protect your peace, man?
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I was just telling Jessica this off mic, I don't go everywhere
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Um I, I know that that's like a Hollywood thing is to show up
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to every premiere to every red carpet, to every event you get
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invited to.
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I don't do that.
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Sometimes you can say yes to something that you don't want
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to do.
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Like, why the fuck did I say yes to this?
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I don't like that.
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I'm like, why am I here?
40:13
Like what if I have to promote something?
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If I'm promoting a show that I'm on my journal something then
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yes.
40:20
But if not nine times out of 10, I'm not showing up.
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That also goes through opportunities too.
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Sometimes you can say yes is something that you don't want
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to do.
40:27
I'm like, why the fuck did I say yes to this?
40:29
And usually every time I say, I don't want to go somewhere and
40:32
then someone convinces me, I always have a bad time and I'm
40:35
a moody bitch.
40:36
I'm like I knew I should have stayed home the day.
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You know, I, I don't care.
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No, but it's like not saying yes to everything.
40:47
I think that's a really good way to protect your peace and so
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cool.
40:49
And actually you were telling me off mic, there was an event
40:51
that I was at that she had briefly pulled up to and she was like
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well, you know what do not, no, we're not going to say the event
40:56
we're not going to say anything about it, but I really respected
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that.
40:59
You mentioned that you pulled up and you were like, you know
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what this maybe isn't for me and you just briefly very left
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and as opposed to me I'm still in that and I'm getting way better
41:08
but maybe I'll stay a little bit longer, even if it doesn't
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feel right, even if it still younger, way better.
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And I was like, I can I ask a messy question?
41:18
Ok, if someone's getting married, you don't really want to
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go to the wedding.
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But, you know, wedding is one of those things where it's like
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if you don't go, that's a message.
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Do you not go to the wedding?
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Like let's say it's a wedding you don't want to go to but it is
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it family.
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I don't know, it's just like a wedding that you don't want to
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go to.
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No, you don't go nowhere.
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You don't want to go to.
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At least I just think you're so grown like as a child, right
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You gotta go wherever your parents are going.
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But as an adult, I rather, what is that new thing?
41:44
It's like the joy of missing out joy, joy of missing out.
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I don't care.
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I love, yeah, I love being home.
41:54
Listen, I have a beautiful apartment.
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I pay a lot of money for that shit in L A and I feel like I want to
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enjoy it.
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I feel like I, I love the women that we've become.
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This is we Yeah, I'm proud.
42:05
But I'm going to ask, you know, I like to do the little fun stuff
42:08
Sometimes I'm going to ask, you know, these kids because I'm
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an elder millennial, they be coming up with new trends now
42:14
like tantric sex or just crypto, whatever the fuck they're
42:18
doing now.
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The oldest thing in history now and kids doing crypto, I don't
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know what it is.
42:31
It is not right.
42:32
But there's this new trend, millennial grind is saying that
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there is this thing called sex manifestation.
42:39
It, it, it's about the energy that you have when you're releasing
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that intensity, that may or may not be an orgasm or some people
42:46
don't make you orgasm, whatever.
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But it's a thing where you can, you can, you can use manifestation
42:51
You may say I like $100 and maybe one more.
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I don't know, I haven't done it $100.
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Yeah, maybe I'm not asking this correctly, but I want to know
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would you this thing?
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Sex manifestation.
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Would you try?
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Yes or no down the line?
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Everyone has to answer Jessica.
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Probably not.
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And I want to add that.
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It's about using sexual energy to purify manifestation if
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you have maybe a tool like a vibrator um which I do at home.
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Well, back in New York, whatever, I'm, I'm in L A now.
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So I'm not going to bring it with me anyways or with another
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partner.
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So it can be with a toy, it can be by yourself, whatever, whatever
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is going on in your personal bedroom.
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My gosh, probably not.
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Um I don't know.
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I would have maybe been more open to it.
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Like a year ago when again, like I didn't, I didn't just begin
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my journey with God.
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But now because I have, I probably, I don't know.
43:41
But I, I don't, if people want to, you know, if that's a thing
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I don't know.
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You don't have to say yes, we need, we need a fan for me, for me
43:54
That's a hard, no, I truly take manifestations serious.
43:58
And like I said, my manifestations are written in prayers
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so I don't go together.
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I am married.
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I can't just be also who the hell created that grind millennial
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fucking grind.
44:08
But for me, I like to play like if I am in a relationship with
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the person I love, I like to try shit that you're not going to
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make me, that you're gonna manifest while you're doing stuff
44:19
You're gonna be like I'm manifesting on New Day, maybe, maybe
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10 15 come, you are not doing that.
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If we're engaging in sex, you're not doing that shit.
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If you don't even know what I'm doing.
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You, you not doing that, you got a vibrator but not right now
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There was a time in my life where I was having anyways, I'm not
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completely against it.
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Whatever.
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I'll try, I don't know about sex but I'll try having sex on $100
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I don't even a million dollars.
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I don't even have that.
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But that's manifest.
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You put it under you and then on top of it, it's a thing.
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I, I still feel like $100.
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I'm not a million.
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I, you know what you would say?
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It has been so good having you here, I'm just so happy.
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Really?
45:08
So having you Julisa, this has been so fun honestly and we have
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to wrap it up now.
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But thank you for sharing your heart and, and literally the
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inspiration that you have like just you're so pure and real
45:19
and we really appreciate that and there's so much more to go
45:23
And we're so excited to see how your life unfolds with God by
45:26
your side and with love, you want to put a little with love promotion
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going on because it's out.
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Now, both with love is out now season two watch on Amazon Prime
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And by the time this thing comes out, right, the 126 year old
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So 100 and 26 year old is check it out on audible.
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