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I grew up like, um just really loving like the witchy spells
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and like, I love Harry Potter.
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Harry Potter, but that kind of spirituality.
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I loved Harry Potter.
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What are you in Jessica?
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You tell me you're the one that I, I'm not.
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I'm definitely right now, but you're, I feel like I'm a Yeah
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I'm just always trying to find the, I feel like, yeah.
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I'm Ivanna Rojas and I'm and welcome back to another episode
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So personally I'm really excited for this episode.
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I'm excited to learn this one's all about spirituality.
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This is all about what you're going to do to kind of find your
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calm and all the chaos here that happens on earth, which we
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all know it can get very ratchet sometimes here and we all have
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And so, I mean, I just want to know out of curiosity, what do
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You know, to find that?
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And then I'll kind of get into like what I have turned to that
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has really helped me.
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I don't know, ground myself, I guess in all this chaos.
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I sage my, my space.
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I go on walks, I sit at the beach, I talk to the earth and mama
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mama, I spend time with my family.
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I do things that to me are like pure and that's when I like ground
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myself the most because I realize that the most simple pure
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things is really what like just calms my frequency fully because
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that's all that I don't know.
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For me it's just beautiful.
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I feel like I kind of got off track.
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You don't like we have a good year of you're journaling, you're
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doing all that stuff in the first episode.
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I said a journal but it's been a while.
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I used to journal a lot.
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I like to spread a lot of in my house.
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Like whenever I clean, I'm like, let me just, I don't know what
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this does, but I think it says good energy.
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Um I feel like talking to a good friend, like having like a good
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I feel like I need to get back to my spirituality and all that
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I recently went to like a crystal shop and bought some crystals
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which I may or may not bring out in this episode.
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Um But yeah, that's what I do.
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I just, I need to get back to that.
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So I'm really excited about this, this episode because I want
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to see like what, what everyone is doing to get back to spirituality
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and you know, I don't know if we wanted to do.
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Actually, I'm really, really excited.
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It's somebody that I feel like a lot of people have been following
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on her journey for a very long time and it's so cool to see the
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evolution that people go through in the different kind of
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chapters in their life that they welcome.
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And you see that happening on social media, we cannot continue
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to be the same person.
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We were not even like a year ago.
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So I'm super excited to bring meditation teacher candy on
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I'm so honored to be here and to share a beautiful space with
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Could you tell us a little bit about your story and how you became
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Well, I was a beauty influencer for 15 years.
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Um started my journey in the military and then beauty influencer
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And um I did really a lot of wonderful activities and incredible
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things through that space.
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But I also found myself in a place where I was no longer in alignment
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I wasn't passionate, I wasn't happy even though these were
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external things that deemed me successful or things that
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I'm supposed to have to be happy.
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Something just didn't feel in alignment anymore.
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And so that's when I started my own spiritual journey and then
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having my son, which also activated, you know, my spirituality
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even more in my journey.
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Did you have like a breaking point that made you really reach
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out to spirituality?
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Like, can you tell us about that?
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Yeah, I think it was, it had a lot to do with my career just because
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um, I think sometimes, you know, in our careers, we go through
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many ups and downs and sometimes it's kind of hard to navigate
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You know, I feel like there's always this big moment in our
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careers, but there's also the journey of coming back down
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and learning and growing and then going back up and to me, it
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was, it had a lot to do with that, you know, just going through
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the journey of up and down and, and embracing all of those valleys
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So how does somebody for anyone that hasn't, how do you start
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a spiritual journey?
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Like, do you like, I feel like there's no handbook for that
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like Ivana was saying something triggered us.
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Like, what's the first step to taking a spiritual journey
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Is it like maybe you recall what that was for you?
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I think it just depends on the person.
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You know, I think the most important thing I feel is just to
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really listen to your intuition and that calling because
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that's always kind of guiding your path.
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You know, there's always these little seeds that I feel like
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a higher power is leading to us.
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And if we settle down and quiet our mind, I feel like we can really
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tune in and start to listen.
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Even if we don't know the path, you know what I mean?
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Oh, that's interesting.
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So you mentioned like higher power and for me personally,
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my faith is super, super important.
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I've tried personally, this is my journey.
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And again, like everybody has their own thing, but I've tried
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But even then I wouldn't be able to completely quiet my mind
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or even find peace in it personally.
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So the thing that has truthfully like grounded me and made
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me feel good was, was God and faith and studying the Bible and
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things like that, which I am still like seriously on this path
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Like I do not know, like I feel like the more I explore that the
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less I know in a sense, but for you, what would that?
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And for people that are spiritual, that maybe aren't religious
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what is that higher power for you guys?
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Um That's a good question.
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I think, I think that's something that everybody, you know
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it all depends on each person.
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But honestly, I have been on a yo, I've been studying yoga and
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Hansa yoga and meditation.
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And what I've learned is to find God within ourselves, not
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anywhere else externally but that light within you that it
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goes beyond all of your, your, your wants and your desires
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your ego, your mind chatter, clearing all of that out and
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going into the center of who you are, which is God.
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A reflection of God is what I believe.
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It's nothing outside and it's finding, it's finding that
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connection within you, within your soul that I feel like nothing
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anything external, nothing can really satisfy that craving
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What do you do with people that I'm a big astrology person?
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Like, every day, I'm like, what I, I actually when you sat down
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like, what's your sign?
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What do you do with people that kind of like, question that
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Like, I feel like that this is not a tangible thing or like spirituality
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So like some people will make fun of me like, oh, you're always
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I'm like, what do you, do?
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You feel like you have to prove that to people or like, how much
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Like, what do you do with, with people that just kind of don't
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believe in the same things you believe?
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You know, that's really interesting because I feel like in
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my journey, I've also gotten a lot of backlash also from expressing
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my spiritual, just, just being a human and exploring myself
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and even wanting to learn all the different religions and
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But um I think we shouldn't judge, you know, each other's journeys
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because there's, I mean, there's no way that I can, I can sit
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here and say this is the right.
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You know what I mean?
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I don't know how to explain that.
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I was really excited that you were on this episode because
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I'm a big, I'm not like a, I'm a big like if I see a sign, I get really
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I'm like, what is like sometimes I see like three crows, the
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Latino culture where it's like I saw three baby crows and I
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hate when I see shit before I take a flight.
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I'm like, oh my God, this is the last one but I saw three baby
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crows one time where like my rosary recently just broke.
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I actually have it here.
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Um And so I was there so I was actually, I probably should say
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this because I'm single right now but I was on a date just because
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I have holes out there and um I was on a date.
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I don't, I was on a date and on that same day like I was sometimes
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my necklace get tied up because my hair would be in the way.
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So I guess I yanked it and I was like, oh shit, I was like, I always
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said something, my rosary broke something bad that means
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So I'm like, does that mean something bad?
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Like is it a is it done or like sometimes like I wear like I have
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a evil eye right here and sometimes it'll break, does any of
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I mean, I think it all depends on the person.
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I find a lot of meaning and a lot of different things.
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I really do feel like just life in general is always giving
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you signs everywhere.
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Do you feel like these signs that sometimes we read into?
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Because, I mean, yeah, I've looked into superstitions too
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especially before I really got into my faith.
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I'd be like, oh, that means something bad.
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Do you feel like sometimes it's all in our minds?
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Yeah, I want to know that because I'll be like, I'll be overthinking
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well, truthfully and again, and I think it was really cool
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what you said before we started this podcast, you said, you
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I don't even, you, you said, you know, I don't want people to
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consider me an expert.
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It's more from your experience.
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I, I definitely want to clarify that to everybody listening
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We're not asking you questions based off of it.
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Because truthfully we are all trying to figure it out.
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It's more so from your experience.
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Is that something you believed or something that's helped
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you out is like following superstitions and things.
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Honestly, for me, it does, there's like the same thing, like
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I saw a hawk this morning on the way to the shoot and I was like
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that has to mean something, you know, I just feel like, like
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for me I feel like God talks to us in so many different ways.
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Albert Einstein has a quote that says, coincidences are God's
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way of being anonymous.
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Like you don't know, but you're like, what this feeling, just
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things that you feel that you're like, wait, it's almost like
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when you see somebody and like, there's people that I see and
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I'm like, I'm going to have some sort of futurist person.
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And then two years later, we're like in a movie together or
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like just like the little intuition, the film that you have
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in your heart that's separate from the ego is something special
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and you can harbor that by having a clear channel.
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And that's why for me like crystals.
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I, I mean, I think God in general, for me, the source is God.
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It's one thing and, and I see it and everything.
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I feel it and everything and I pray in multiple ways.
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I have a little altar.
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I have my grandma, I have a statue of Mary.
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I have things that I just connect to, but I also use things like
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nature and being in church or being in church or crystals on
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my heart just to like clear the channel within me.
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And I don't know if that means anything or maybe it's a personal
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thing, but it just kind of like gives me a, a neutral place to
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really like think about things instead of coming from a, you
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Like, crystals became a big thing for me.
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It's like the energy of it because it's the earth, it's like
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a frequency that hold the frequency that you can vibrate to
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I don't know if you can relate to that.
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But yeah, I think, I think we forget so much about our connection
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to nature in general.
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You know, like how we are a part of nature and we're not separate
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So when we go out barefoot and we walk on, on earth, you know
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earth, grounding is word for me or like the crystals, like
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you said, like when we're connecting and making ourselves
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a part of that same source energy, we are able to communicate
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I feel interesting in regards to the comment that we're talking
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about coincidences, speaking of which, every night, OK,
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every night, I pray that OK, because I'm single and my dream
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My dream is to genuinely find a great guy, a guy that believes
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in a lot of the same beliefs that I have.
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You know, I just say, I pray for my future spouse.
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I pray for my future family.
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I pray that you know all these things.
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And I open up my Instagram right after I cry and I was crying
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praying like that's how powerful prayer is for me because
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I will sit there in bed and I will literally start bawling crying
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because I feel the power of the Holy Spirit.
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It just comes out when you really, when you really tap into
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that power that I have.
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And by the way, for many years, I was not related, I was like
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what does that even mean?
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I don't feel God, I was raised in Catholic church until I really
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felt hey, and understood what people were talking about.
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But anyway, back to the point, I was crying, I was like, oh,
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like I love you God.
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And then I opened up my Instagram and like, you know, a couple
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of minutes after and the very first post was praying for and
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waiting for the correct man is worth, I forget what it was like
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it was worth being patient for.
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And I started crying again because I felt that I was like, that
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Like I genuinely feel like that was God coming and telling
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me like you're on the right path like you're doing, you're
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And I can't wait to have him on the podcast.
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Did you, did you pray for your partner because you've been
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with your partner for what?
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I did not pray for you.
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It was, it was literally nothing.
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So I had, I was so naive, you know what I mean?
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It was a whole different time in my life, but I believe in that
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I believe in what you're doing and like manifesting right
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Intention, intention, and that.
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And spirituality can sometimes cause such a big divide when
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in truth to say it's supposed to be something about just rooted
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I feel like I pray a lot for my career because I feel like I'm
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not like a super, I feel like I'm more spiritual, you know,
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everything I feel like there is a plan for me on this planet
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and I'm like, OK, whatever that is, I'm just going to follow
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But it wasn't until I had like a really dark time right before
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the pandemic where I was about to be evicted from my apartment
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I was just doing, I had left my six figure job and I was doing
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comedies full time like, yo, what the fuck am I doing?
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And I was like, there's no other way I can get through this.
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That's when I started building my relationship with God because
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there has, there's no reason why I should have made it here
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because I literally did not have rent money each month.
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So that's when I started praying and I was not crying, but I
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And also when I was in a really abusive relationship and I couldn't
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I was like, what is the one thing I'm not doing?
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Like, what is one thing I could do differently that I'm not
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And I just started praying So, ever since that relationship
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I've just been praying every night, I'm like, I'm going to
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just pray, like, every time I pray something good and beautiful
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But I'm not like I feel guilty sometimes because I'm like,
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you ladies are chilling with God and he's right there on the
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But I'm just like, I just, it's not a big part of my life.
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So I guess sometimes I do feel guilty because I'm like, I stopped
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going to church when I was like 16 and I'm just trying to, I mean
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who knows what the future holds?
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I mean, hanging out with Jessica, I'm like, I need to, I need
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to put a picture of God in my apartment.
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But I do, I do have the, the dinner that they went to I can.
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But I do because I'm Dominican.
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I feel like every person that's Latino has to have some kind
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of like worship thing in their apartment.
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So I went to store and I bought the last supper and I hung it up
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That's how I honor God.
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So I want to know like, um you know, from your guys' perspective
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because I know spirituality is obviously the thing that has
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really, really helped you guys.
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I want to kind of get into the realm of like spirits and demons
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because truthfully even hold on.
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I want to talk about this.
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I know, I know everybody gets scared about that.
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But truthfully if you believe in something that is, you know
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a good light, there's obviously the darkness to duality
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and that's like nothing to be, you know, I don't, I don't think
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that's something that people should shy away from talking
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about or addressing because truthfully we all deal with duality
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within ourselves, within, you know, whatever you feel like
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is around you and I feel like unless you address it, it's how
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are you going to ever be able to tackle that in your own life
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How are you gonna ever be able to like, approach it in your life
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So for you and your experiences when you have felt, you know
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what you would say like that bad energy or you feel like you
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have maybe like an omen.
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Do you turn to like or like what exactly is it that's helping
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Yeah, I've done Limpias before.
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I love spiritual bathing also with a also um just to kind of
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cleanse my Aa Florida water.
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It's kind of like a cologne, but it's used in the spiritual
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Um But I think those things are so important even when you're
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in any kind of environment just to cleanse yourself.
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Even if it's not a negative environment, I think it's important
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to just kind of like neutralize the energy in your body and
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whatever you absorbed because even our hair, you know, it's
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known as antennas, it absorbs energy also, you know, I've
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actually heard that.
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Um, yeah, I mean, I've definitely felt a lot of, I mean, not
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lately but I felt negative energies before and I think ignorance
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of not knowing what it is scared me a lot.
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So, learning about different religions and different, different
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just learning about all of it has really empowered me to not
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be so afraid of the things that I don't know or the things that
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I might be perceiving as evil to what are some of the religions
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that you, because you might mentioned that a few times, like
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what are the other religions that you kind of study?
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Um Well, I'm studying a lot of yogic philosophy right now and
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just understanding their gods and how um like what they worship
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or, you know, what their spiritual practices are because
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I grew up Catholic also.
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And then I um I ventured into Christianity and everything
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and then I felt a lot of fear from like my community being projected
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And so the best way for me was to learn about everything else
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and to understand it and not be afraid or judge what other people
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That's kind of scary though.
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Like if you, I mean, again, I don't really take, it's not that
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I don't take, it's not a big, huge part of my life.
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I feel like I do pray but to have your community kind of be mad
17:20
at you for making your own decision.
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Because a lot of the times we're born into these religions
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like I grew up Catholic but I never questioned it.
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Like my mom was Catholic.
17:27
I got the communion, the confirmation I'm ready for marriage
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But I haven't, I just feel like I think that people should have
17:37
the right to explore what's the right fit for them.
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But I don't want, I want to get canceled.
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I don't know any, you know, like I went to college, I went to
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I wanted to go for fun but it was a grad class.
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It was a mess, but I was a mess.
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But we did study like and, and I was even, it's not a practice
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that I want to participate.
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It was dope to see how other people kind of welcome Gods or their
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God into their community.
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So I think we should be open to hearing other people's lifestyles
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And it doesn't mean that we're going to be practicing it.
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But just understanding people I think is so important because
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I feel like religion and spirituality can sometimes cause
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such a big divide when in truth, it's supposed to be something
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about just rooted in love, right?
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Or maybe even a compass for life.
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I think we were talking before we went on air about like with
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Like I feel like I couldn't be here if it didn't have some kind
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of spirituality because I'm like, sometimes you get lost
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So it's nice to have a place to go back to.
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It's like this is my compass.
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This is maybe that could be like the 10 commandments for someone
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or, you know, that's how you can navigate through life because
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life gets kind of scary.
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Sometimes it does get scary.
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And we were even talking about like, existential.
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Oh, yeah, we talk about this off camera, which I've had so many
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more, particularly weirdly when I come back from a vacation
18:55
and I had been partying or something and like in the past I'd
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come back and I'd just lay in bed having a crazy existential
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I have one once a week when I'm doing comedy.
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I just, you know, I am a Pisces Moon.
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Um, so we live in existential dread, but it's just like the
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idea of the fact that we only get one life and, you know, and
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now that I'm seeing my niece grow up, like it's just scary to
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me to be like, I don't know, I think anyone that maybe has a kid
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or has felt a death in their family sometimes questions like
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their purpose on life.
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So I've just been having a lot of like, I'm like, what am I supposed
19:30
Am I doing the right thing?
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Am I living life the right way?
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Am I on the right path?
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I, I just think I just also overthink, I overthink everything
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So do you need meditation?
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I want, I want to do a, I've thought about doing a, what are some
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of your meditations that because your meditation teacher
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what are some things you do or teacher?
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So I teach, I teach primordial sound meditation, which is
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um a mantra that is a sound that was created out in the universe
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the moment of your birth.
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So it's used to calculated at the time of your birth and the
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place that you were born.
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So it's very powerful.
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It's calculated mathematically.
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And you're given this mantra in a ceremony and you meditate
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with this mantra and it becomes the tool that takes you from
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this state of consciousness to back to where you were born
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to back where God resides.
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So it is a spiritual journey and it takes you back and forth
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and um it's really great, you know, like a lot of people use
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it, of course for stress and health benefits and all of that
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But really how do we make our sound?
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Um I would have to give it to you that way.
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We're another teacher, another primordial sound meditation
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Now the time they were born, just random tangent, what time
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You like six ish, I think seven pm or am that makes all the difference
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3 p.m. I was 1 10 in the morning.
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I know, but I have a, I have a tattoo on the side.
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I have a bunch of tattoos.
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That's a special number.
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What does that mean?
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It's an angel number one.
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My girls don't, I don't know the ones over here that, like,
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they were like they were like, oh, my God, we got number.
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Well, I was, I was born.
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The biggest between religion and spirituality?
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Oh yeah, I wouldn't know that.
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Yeah, I think for you, for me.
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Yeah, for me personally.
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Um I think it's just following your own path.
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You know, there's no dogma attached to it.
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There's really, it's just you exploring your own inner depth
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and you, you finding that truth within you, you know, nowhere
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I think that's what it means.
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And I think we, we talked a lot off camera but we're also talking
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about like finding your highest self.
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Like, do you ever arrive there?
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Because some days I'll have moments and I'm like, yo, like
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I made it and then now just to be transparent, I was like, yo
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what time am I going to get there?
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Because I have been traveling like even before I got here.
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When does my highest self come in?
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When do you meet the girl?
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I, I've been traveling for the highest self, 33 years, 30 hours
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And I'm like, when do you ever get there?
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Because like how much work I've done work, like I've sat there
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and every day, like, I've done different techniques.
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But I'm like, when did I meet her?
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Because I mean, do you think I feel like I have had visions of
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my highest self of myself.
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Like I have, I have been like, whoa, like, there's like little
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visions that I have of what I imagine myself being like the
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highest form of purest form, the most beautiful form in the
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most closest to source form.
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I have seen it and I know that it's gonna take a lot of discipline
22:38
and sacrifices and like responsibility to get there.
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And I, and I, and I can't wait for that moment when I'm like,
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ok, I'm gonna stop this, stop doing things because that's
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where I can get closer.
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It's like a, it's a kind of like eliminating all the barriers
22:50
that get me as close as I can with.
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So, so I know the vision or the version of me that I think is my
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highest self, but it's just a matter of like, really wanting
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it and getting, you know what I mean?
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And time obviously, but like, there's a point when you're
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like, ok, I'm 33 34 year old.
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Like I know what's right and I know what's wrong and like, you
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know what makes you feel good?
23:09
Like what if I really, when I really want it I'm going to make
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it happen and I think it's around this time Ivana.
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What does your inner source look like?
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Does she have clothes?
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Does she, how does she clothes?
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Just like chicken nuggets here too?
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No, she's like, she's glowing and she's wearing like white
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and, like, smiling and there's kids all these, like a school
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of kids around and I'm like, in a field and I'm like, just playing
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But like, it's like, almost like in the future I see myself
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devoting my whole self to service to kids in different places
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But I can't do it until I have a platform and I have a voice and
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I have, you know, like a reason to like, step out into that world
23:51
and knowledge to give to kids and resources to help.
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So I'm just, I'm walking this path right now to get to that version
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and I can't wait to get there, you know, and I know that God is
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leading me every step of the way.
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So that's kind of like, I just harbor my life and I try to be the
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best version of myself every day, even though I do things that
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I know that aren't the best.
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I mean, I could say the same thing for people that try to be as
24:19
good as they can in their faith.
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I messed up all the time.
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Like, look, I'm sipping on wine and like, you know, but it's
24:25
But you try your best every single day and you will fail.
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We are literally flawed.
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We make mistakes every single day or like the ways that I eat
24:35
or maybe not saying some words that I shouldn't be saying or
24:39
you know, talking, saying things, gossip, whatever, gossiping
24:42
things that are just not conducive or helpful for the energy
24:46
like a positive energy, you know, like I know what's good
24:48
I'm not saying that there's a good and a bad, but you know what
24:51
So I think that's like the biggest thing for me in my life right
24:54
now is like just walking the path of where I know I should be
24:57
and, and, and the universe just waiting for me to get there
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You know what I mean?
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But it takes time and experience.
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I have a question has got a reading.
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What do you think about that?
25:08
And because I, I don't know if you seen the movie Carmen with
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Beyonce, it was like a thing.
25:14
It was like a while ago, but ever since I've seen the movie and
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the Death Card came out, I was like, I can't do tarot cards,
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but then I started getting into them again and then I get really
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creeped out whenever I see the death card even though it doesn't
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But I just always think about that.
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The car, what's the science behind that?
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I would love to know because you or does anybody here know,
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does, I don't know the actual answer but I, I've done tarot
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Um, I've gotten a reading before and I also have my own cards
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and I think it just works from intuition and also the knowledge
25:44
and self experience that you have.
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I don't think it's like fortune telling or something in the
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It's nothing like that.
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I think it's more so look at, it's just symbolism of what it
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And then paired with other cards, it just tells a story.
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So a person that can read cards is just reading symbols.
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Basically, it's how I perceived it to be.
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So what, what is if somebody wants to go get like a tarot card
26:05
reading and they're looking for answers?
26:08
But you're saying, obviously you said it's not telling the
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You're not like um saying this is what's going to happen if
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you get like the death card for instance.
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So what exactly is the, the reasoning why people would go get
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I used to get them when I felt lost or like if I was in a bad relationship
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like, yo, what does this mean?
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Or like just kind of like if you're on the right path, but I just
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stopped messing with them because there's a point where it's
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like I just, for me it's like, what was the point of knowing
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Like I should just make the mess of now.
26:37
I like, I was just always trying to find that what happen in
26:39
the future and then I heard that if you get too many readings
26:41
it kind of changes your past.
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I was like, you know what, I'm going to just chill like I should
26:45
just make the most of this moment.
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But once in a while, like, you know, we're having girls night
26:49
I'm like a but one time I did that and it was a bad reading and
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I was like, that's why I stopped messing with them because
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that girl had a bad year, the year after I did that.
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And I was like, oh my God.
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Yeah, but I just think all of this is just guidance.
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I think that we don't really have life is really whatever you
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So it's like if you want to follow a certain guide or a spiritual
27:08
religion, it's just to give you like, I guess meaning every
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day on earth because, you know, everyone arrives to it at different
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I just want to chime in too and just give because tarot cards
27:19
aren't also just always about spirituality and they kind
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of talk to the universal human experience.
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And you know, if you guys look at folk tell folk storytellers
27:27
or just like ST uh stories being passed down even as much as
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the Bible, it's really about kind of taking those stories
27:32
which encapsulate human lessons and then allow, you know
27:37
people to really kind of then interpret that for them their
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That's what I was gonna say.
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That's what I was gonna say about that.
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It's like you kind of have a question when you're, you have
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a question while you're doing the card and you have this story
27:50
of what the card is and you get to interpret it personally and
27:54
kind of give yourself an answer.
27:55
It's kind of like an intuitive answer has nothing to do with
27:57
Like this is telling you exactly what to do.
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It's like you have a question, you, you kind of get like a little
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guidance and you figure out your, yourself, you figure it
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You know what I mean?
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Like it to go take your own home, you know, having a relationship
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with another individual that is so intimate, that is spiritual
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You know what I mean?
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Is that what I have?
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It's a cosmic, I think I had not because I did anyone grow up
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watching any magic kind of shows?
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Well, not only obviously Walter Mercado, he was in every home
28:29
but maybe a charmed or I was, I feel like not enough people give
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charm their flowers.
28:36
I was like me and my sister grew up watching Charm.
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Did you have a witch that you related to?
28:41
Like, as one of the sisters?
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Well, I didn't watch charm but I grew up like, just really loving
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the witchy spells and I loved Harry Potter.
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But that counts as spirituality.
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I loved Harry Potter.
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What house are you in?
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You tell me you're the one that I, I'm not.
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I'm definitely right now.
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But you're, I feel like I'm a, yeah, I'm just always trying
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to find, yeah, I feel like there's nothing wrong with Slytherin
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There is this for the Slytherin people out there.
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There's nothing wrong with that.
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Always slithering you.
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I'm just not honest.
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But, you know, Harry Potter was both a Slytherin and huff and
29:31
Yeah, because he, he had some traits.
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It was like the whole thing.
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It was part of the movie.
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So, did anybody watch, read any fantasy books besides Harry
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Like, I just feel like it was like a thing.
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I just, speaking of fantasy books.
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Do you believe in tantra?
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No, I just started that word just came to my little hearts of
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spirituality, the yoga and then astrology.
29:59
Well, spirituality, the word is spiritual ritual.
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Yeah, it has nothing to do.
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Like spirituality isn't like a religion.
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It's just like what rituals you use to, to harbor and to give
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love to your spirit.
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So whether that's praying the bible, going to church, reading
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writing yoga, like it's just your spiritual ritual.
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That's spirituality, you know.
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So it's not like that word.
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It just kind of like a, you know what I mean, it's just like a
30:23
general, general genre of how you harbor your spirit.
30:27
And I have a definition for you guys on tantra.
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So in Sanskrit, the word tantra means woven together people
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who practice Buddhist and Hindu meditation may also practice
30:35
like tantric sex as a way to weave the physical with the spirit
30:38
spirituality and sexuality and emphasizes the importance
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I mean, I've heard of that, just think about having a relationship
30:47
with another individual that is so intimate, that is spiritual
30:51
You know what I mean?
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Is that what I have?
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It's a cosmic, I think I had to cosmic.
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Not because sorry, what's the difference?
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I already consider sex a spiritual thing.
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So what more, how much more spiritual can it get?
31:05
Like and, and I will say, you know, I'm speaking, I'm transparent
31:08
like for me, like before in my twenties, I don't having sex
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it was just like a thing, whatever.
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But now as I'm in my thirties, like it really means like I'm
31:14
connecting with that person, like the last person I was with
31:18
So like, is that how do you know the difference between regular
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sex and something that's more spiritual?
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I mean, I don't know if you have the answer a question but like
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for me, the whole, the whole act of it is spiritual.
31:27
So I'm like, what is, I guess tantric makes it more exciting
31:31
I don't know, I don't know.
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What does anybody know what the techniques are for that.
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I just know like from what my friend, he does breath work and
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part of it is tantric and he just is, it's about connecting
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to the breath with the other person.
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Like being one that's like what I know.
31:45
So, but it's must to do with, it's not even like sexual, like
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you can be intimate with just breath work with the person.
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Like it's not even about being naked.
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It's just about being face to face and connecting with the
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person and being one like one breath, one heart.
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I don't know about doing that.
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I don't want someone in my face like that.
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Sorry, I just say I'm going to look more, we need some more examples
32:07
of and again, that's just one thought that I had, I don't really
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know exactly the definition, but it's just about really connecting
32:12
with the person that you're with and not even in a sexual way
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I feel like if you're OK, as people would say, like making love
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with someone, right?
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Because I know like sex, you know, having sex nowadays in our
32:24
society has become something super casual.
32:26
Obviously, people are like, you know, it's your body could
32:29
do what, you know, do whatever you want.
32:31
But it has in a sense I feel like lost a little bit of that.
32:35
This is actually a connection like you're really making a
32:38
connection with someone every time you sleep with them.
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And I know some people don't, aren't going to agree with me
32:43
And they're gonna say, well, I can, you know, sleep with someone
32:45
and not feel anything.
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But I genuinely do feel like a part of you, you leave a part of
32:49
each other with each other.
32:51
So I feel like regardless if you're doing breathwork or not
32:53
if you're doing it with someone that you really love and this
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is like your person, you're going to feel that spiritual connection
33:00
You know, that's why maybe you love my last guy because I loved
33:04
But let's start talking about sex because I was like, you know
33:08
but it's part of spirituality, it's connecting with other
33:12
Would you ever be friends with someone that isn't your level
33:15
Like sometimes I feel like I am connecting with people and
33:18
I'm like, I don't think we're at the same level in our spiritual
33:21
So I do keep them at a distance.
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Do you ever feel that way if you ever?
33:27
And that's a really good question because you come from an
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industry and I'm sure friendships where it's, you know, we
33:33
all know that beauty, you know, social media world got a little
33:36
bit crazy there for a while and priorities are kind of all out
33:39
Um when you made your transition, like, how was it with your
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friends and friends that maybe didn't follow that path with
33:45
Yeah, I went through a period where I had no friends.
33:48
I was completely alone for almost two years just because I
33:52
felt like I had to do a lot of work within myself.
33:54
And in order for me to give my true authentic self without my
33:57
ego, like putting up walls and guarding and protecting me
34:00
I just kind of had to stay away from people, but it just happen
34:03
naturally, you know.
34:04
but also I think a big part was that in the industry, I was going
34:09
to events and being around a lot of environments where I'm
34:12
like, we can't even go deep with each other.
34:15
There's no connection here.
34:16
Everything is extremely superficial and I don't want to,
34:20
you know, I didn't want to spend my life like that.
34:22
I wanted you to be in this, in a space like this.
34:25
But having these connections and having these type of conversations
34:29
what is real like past surface level?
34:32
One of my friends asked me, I had some, you know, like we were
34:34
making new friends, one of my friends asked me one time like
34:37
So and so connect on and I thought it was a really good question
34:40
because then it makes you peel back the layers of what is this
34:43
Like are we connecting?
34:44
Because what is the mutual interest here?
34:46
Because we're both like growing or is it like a negative connection
34:49
I think to be honest, I just cut someone off.
34:52
I'm like, you know, I don't think we're connecting on something
34:55
It wasn't bad but it was like, I don't, I think after that situation
34:58
happened, we didn't have anything to talk about anymore.
35:01
So I was like, I like you but I don't know if we're going to be
35:03
doing this journey for the rest of our lives.
35:07
Like I feel like now spirituality is trending in, in a way that
35:12
could be exploited, exploited and they could be like, you
35:16
know, people are following gurus that have no knowledge or
35:19
education, proper education or whatever it is.
35:21
Like, what do you feel about that in the industry with the spirituality
35:24
Like, do you think that you should be careful about certain
35:26
things or like, how do you decipher discern?
35:29
Like I think that's why it's so important for us as individuals
35:33
to do the inner work, you know, and like you said, like, follow
35:35
gurus who actually have like, yo and I know me too.
35:40
And like Jesus Christ, people who have been self realized
35:43
for real, like in, in, in this incarnation in the world.
35:47
Um And learning about everything is so empowering also about
35:51
every religion and everything else.
35:53
When you empower yourself with knowledge, you can't be easily
35:56
swayed because I know when I first joined a Christian church
36:00
and I had no, I was pretty naive and people would tell me, oh
36:04
you can't be into crystals through state.
36:05
You can't study yoga.
36:07
Um This is not what God wants.
36:08
You're going to hell and this and that I would be so afraid that
36:11
even meditation became scary for meditation.
36:14
I know, like, even against the religion, if you really look
36:16
into it, like yoga meditation, those are all things that are
36:18
like that you're not supposed to be doing.
36:19
You know, and I felt like, like the, the greatest power that
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I was able to have for myself is just to learn and understand
36:27
You know, because if not, then you won't be afraid.
36:29
Now you understand, you understand and you can make your own
36:33
decision from a place of power instead of just listening to
36:36
what other people have to say because all of the answers are
36:38
within, you know what I mean?
36:39
Like literally no one else can.
36:41
And I think people forget that meditation is prayer.
36:45
Like I said, just prayer is a different word.
36:47
You sit down, you're in silence and you're speaking to whoever
36:50
whatever source meditation is the same thing.
36:52
You're sitting in silence and you're praying and you're asking
36:55
for things and you're talking to somebody and you're listening
36:58
Like I sit on the ocean and I sit for 20 minutes with silence
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and I listen and that's the same thing.
37:04
And then I also can pray, pray on my knees at the church for 30
37:07
minutes and I listen.
37:08
So it's just like people misconstrue these words just because
37:11
like meditation, prayer, it's all one, everyone just learned
37:14
it in different ways.
37:15
And you can like when you meditate, you can use like a, you can
37:18
meditate on that mantra.
37:20
And our men basically mean the same thing.
37:22
And I like to say, um I heard a quote somewhere not mean, I don't
37:25
like to say, well, I like to say it, but I heard a quote that says
37:28
prayer is talking to God and meditation is listening because
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meditation is quiet in the mind.
37:33
So you're able to hear God and prayer is, of course, we're talking
37:37
So, ok, so people that are spiritual that aren't religious
37:41
when they do meditate, what are they?
37:42
What do you think people are thinking about?
37:44
Like because there are people that are spiritual that don't
37:46
maybe necessarily believe in, you know, God, the God that
37:49
Christians or Catholics believe when they are listening
37:52
what are they listening to like their inner selves?
37:54
Like who they are you?
37:57
So for me to just sit there and not think of anything and it just
38:01
be a blank space means that it comes to you.
38:03
You need, you need the most, I swear, swear for 20 minutes and
38:09
not think of anything.
38:13
You think, but you're not having thoughts of jumbled thoughts
38:17
and you can't have a moment of just peaceful.
38:19
It's being aware of those being aware of the thoughts and letting
38:22
them kind of go by without you.
38:24
And on that, the biggest thing is becoming the observer of
38:29
the thoughts because a lot of times we attach ourselves to
38:32
the thoughts we're having, we're having a bad day, like you
38:34
say, oh, I'm having a bad day, but it's literally a thought
38:37
that is coming by your mind.
38:39
So in meditation, you become detached and you start to see
38:42
oh my mind is just thinking if you're late at, if you're sleeping
38:45
at night or just laying in bed and you're having all of these
38:48
anxious thoughts about life and everything.
38:50
You with meditation and with regular consistency, you start
38:53
to see you are the one observing and the awareness behind the
38:58
mind activity, whatever is happening in your body.
39:01
And that's, that's the power, you know that that's when you
39:03
become detached and you start to see that you, you're way more
39:07
than your mind and your body in the situation.
39:09
Like there's more to you than all of that and that you're not
39:12
that yeah, it's so true.
39:13
And I would definitely agree with the bodies that we have.
39:15
Now, this is us in physical form.
39:17
But truthfully there is something so much more powerful and
39:20
something that I feel like we live on forever, which is your
39:23
soul, which is like your, your, your even like the consciousness
39:27
I feel like there's, there's something so special to speak
39:30
on consciousness, the fact that we're able to have this conversation
39:33
be aware and to think that's not something that I feel like
39:36
science or the brain works like this can ever really explain
39:41
And again, like people are spiritual, you believe in a source
39:43
in the universe, you know, whatever it is that, you know, you
39:46
believe in and that makes you feel peaceful.
39:48
It's, it's so crazy because again, like, I just only believe
39:51
science can only go so far.
39:52
Science can only go so far, at least for me.
39:57
And how did your life change when you became aware and your
40:01
awareness and your consciousness?
40:02
Oh my God, completely, like 100% my whole life changed.
40:07
Um I mean, for the better, you know, I was struggling with depression
40:11
and anxiety and also like my career and was such a big part of
40:15
me because what I do for a living is what I do all day every day
40:18
So it had to be something super meaningful.
40:20
It had to be something that I really loved and I felt like I could
40:23
be of service, you know, and to me, meditation has been the
40:27
key that opened me up in so many different ways.
40:29
I mean, just patience overall, but just knowing that, you
40:33
know, just being in alignment, wherever you are, you're just
40:35
happy even though you don't know where you're going even though
40:37
you don't know what's to come for.
40:39
You, you're happy to be here, you know, and you're enjoying
40:42
Do you ever judge your past for not knowing any better?
40:46
Because, I mean, like, I mean, knowing any better and your
40:48
subjective and she was in the military?
40:50
Do you ever judge some of the decisions you made before you
40:55
Um, I don't, I mean, sometimes I have regrets about being in
40:58
the army and like, well, because it's not such a healthy environment
41:02
you know, and there's a lot of war is just ugly and things like
41:05
But it's also a part of my journey and I'm grateful for every
41:09
single step in the journey.
41:10
That's so crazy because you see you now you feel you're beautiful
41:13
you have beautiful energy and you know, you're super well
41:16
spoken and just to imagine you in the army even that I can't
41:22
I sure you're a bad ass but being of service, right?
41:25
In both ways, the rest of the country and now you're being of
41:27
service to the people, right?
41:29
So you wanted to be of service.
41:31
Always I think since I was a little girl, I, I'm sure you guys
41:35
I could see it like you always just know there's something
41:38
that God wants you to do, right?
41:40
There's something more and you know, there's something for
41:44
Really want to feel these lessons are teaching me.
41:47
And so for me, marijuana in that sense helps me out.
41:50
I haven't tried mushrooms, but I am interested.
41:54
I want to do a mushroom trip but I hear that you have to go with
41:58
I mean, I don't even know where to get it.
42:00
My Jessica, my cousin, I tried, you know, meditation and I
42:07
really looked into all of that stuff.
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I want to say this was in 2017 and still I dealt with so much,
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you know, every morning.
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Actually, before work, I would sit there and, you know, meditate
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which was try to clear your mind.
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I'd put on meditation sounds and I would lay and it did help
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me for actually a while.
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I'm like, I feel so much calmer, like I feel, I felt like all
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Um but again, like every single person is going to different
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things are going to help different people.
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But I think you're meditating, you talk about running a lot
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and I think meditation is just doing something that doesn't
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you don't think about like, you know, work or I have to do this
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I just use this in your body, just breathing.
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And so I think that your meditation, there's different forms
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you know, that is so true.
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Actually, the way that I had, I had personally shifted from
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you know, doing more so the spirit spiritual stuff into more
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like a faith based thing as I was running.
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Actually in the middle of the morning, it was still dark and
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I wasn't searching for it.
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I wasn't seeking it in the middle of this run that I was doing
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I felt like wind hit my face.
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It was so fresh, it felt so good.
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And I just felt there's no other word to describe it for me.
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It was just God speaking to me and saying you've been lost.
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I feel like you've been lost personally.
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And I lifted up my hands like this.
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And I just started saying, oh my God, like I don't want to say
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But literally, it was like God, like I, I feel you, I feel you
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I fell to my knees and I was just like this is, and people would
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always say I've never felt God's presence and I didn't.
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And I guess for, you know, anybody that's in spirituality
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I never felt what you guys would call maybe like the creator
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or whatever it might be for some people.
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It's not, I'm trying to respect, you know, however, you know
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other people may identify this presence as for me, it was
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1000% God, it was undeniable to me.
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And um yeah, since then I knew, OK, what people speak about
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when they feel like the power of the Holy Spirit, like this
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feeling was so undeniable for me.
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And that's what I do sometimes, you know, when I do talk to God
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I say God, I just wish you revealed yourself to more people
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because it is absolutely one of the most beautiful feelings
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And just like, I'm sure other people that do other methods
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in practice, they also feel like that sense of, you know, so
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I feel like mine is when I'm right, I just am away from everyone
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The one time I get to be alone is in the shower.
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So I just be like, oh my God, finally some just by myself, thoughts
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and then when I'm writing, when I'm literally doing, I don't
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know if you use ladies in the movie Soul.
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So you know, when they're in that space of creating, that's
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when yeah, the zone, the blue zone.
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That's when I feel the best.
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But I don't have a lot of opportunities to get there.
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Sometimes I'm always moving around.
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I have a question because I feel like you ladies, I feel like
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everyone's much better at what they're doing.
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There are people like me like, you know, when I used to meditate
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and they'd be like, oh you got to breathe the right way, you
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got to put your hand the right way.
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What do you say to people that just don't know how to participate
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in these rituals the right way?
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Like even like I will feel embarrassed to go back to church
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and I forgot to a chance to put the communion and I was like,
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I'm going to be embarrassed.
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So, like, what do you say to people that are afraid to participate
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and really want to be, like, get back into religion or do spirituality
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and don't know the right way to do it without getting, I feel
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like there's a lot of judgment sometimes when you don't know
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Like, for you personally, like your journey, how did you start
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Did you start reading books?
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Did you start following like everything?
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I think the first thing that started for me was just um I love
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courses and just studying things from start to finish.
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So that's when I started to learn meditation and then get certified
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to become a teacher.
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And then that opened me up to yoga and that opened me up to um
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Han Yoda and his connections to Jesus Christ and Christianity
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and how that correlates with one another.
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And it just kind of started taking off from there, you know
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and I started to develop my own things.
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But in the beginning, I was also doing like the Florida water
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I was doing a lot of crystals.
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Yes, I have an what does look like?
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Um out of my vision board, I have uh usually flowers.
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I have all of the gurus of the self reality.
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The one thing that's all unfolded.
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I, I love that place, the place called self realization lake
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that is in, in the Pacific Palace.
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That's where a part of Gandhi's ashes are there.
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And Yoda made it for anyone to come to meditate.
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There's a lake and swans and a church and a chap.
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If anyone wants to go visit, please do.
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And I, yes, I recommend the lessons, studying the lessons
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It's honestly the biggest life changing thing for me.
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He teaches you how to really meditate and ask like God or you
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know, like reveal yourself, reveal yourself, like really
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command God to reveal himself to you.
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And he will with patience and with patience and reverence
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and a yearning and a craving to know that a craving to love him
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And honestly, the biggest thing that changed is just the love
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that you give to people, like the overflowing love that you
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just have to give to everybody.
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You know, because I feel like lately I've been taking advantage
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of and I'm like, you know what?
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This is a purpose, my purpose is to be helpful.
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So I shouldn't feel a type of way because I, I feel like that's
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a better perspective of I was just called to help other people
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So I shouldn't feel like I'm being taken advantage of.
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I like that help me without expecting anything in return,
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Wait until you alter, you have the saints, the saints, the
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flower the vision board.
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I burned some incense and, yeah, pretty much.
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I just keep it pretty simple.
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Sometimes I have photos of my ancestors.
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Wait, what's your, like, your nationality background?
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Because I feel like I feel like I don't have an ulcer but I do
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But I know that one thing that me and my mom have been talking
47:50
a lot and we were like, should we start celebrating?
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Is I think it's really dope.
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I think sometimes when you're grieving, you just kind of like
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you do a prayer or you do like, I forgot the name of it, but you
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just wish the person to the next lifetime.
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But I love how for deer every once a year you get to remember
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everyone that has passed.
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And I, I really, I do love that.
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I wish, I wish that there was something like that in the Dominican
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community, you know.
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So you have your ancestors on your altar?
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But I haven't done a altar.
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I want to flowers and water.
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What about you guys?
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Do you guys have altars as well?
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I just, when you walk into my room into my apartment, I have
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I have two candles, a protection candle.
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It's some other candle.
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I don't know the name, but I know it means something good.
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And then I have, I go to this bookshop called Nama State Bookshop
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And I have a, I think it's like a ray candle.
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And this year I wanted to have stability in my life.
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Stability in abundance.
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Sometimes I would get like a money candle or whatever.
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But I'm like, you know, I want something bigger than that.
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I just want stability.
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So that's just what I have there.
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Oh, I was going to wear a ring.
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Like it's pretty, it's pretty simple.
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But I do feel like I'm bad like I should have pictures of people
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or something, you know, whatever you feel called to do.
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What about in the morning?
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What's your, your ritual when you wake up?
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Uh when I wake up in the morning, I go straight into meditation
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You know, I put on, I started wearing a white turban just to
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kind of keep the energy of the crown because you, you know,
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when you're meditating, you also want the energy to move up
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through the spine and into your third eye.
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Um So I put on a turban, I sit on my meditation for 20 minutes
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and just, you know, just concentrate the, the key word is to
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to learn how to concentrate on, on God and that energy within
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you know, and how do you know your third eye open?
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Like how would I know if my third eye is open?
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No, II I focus on the third and your third eye.
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So another thing I wanted to ask because we did, we were talking
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about like third eyes and people consider maybe and I want
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to know what you think because I feel like it is kind of attached
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to spirituality which is doing mushrooms or like these psychedelics
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that people do describe as like a spiritual journey.
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And I do want to preface this by saying I have done mushrooms
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Last year for the first time I did it because I was going through
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one of the worst depressions of my life.
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I was just like a complete mess.
50:19
Sometimes I couldn't even get out of bed from how paralyzing
50:22
And I was trying to find ways that I and I had done my research
50:26
on mushrooms and it did say, OK, this is something that has
50:31
you know, proven to cure depression or anxiety.
50:34
People have seen studies on our PSD from maybe soldiers that
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So I did do it and it did give, it was the craziest experience
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Would I do it again?
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I think at the time when I did feel super lost it made sense for
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And like you said, you have to explore and figure out what we
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for you and I've found what honestly works for me.
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And now I don't feel like I need to ever turn to psychedelics
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again, you know, anymore.
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But in that moment, right, we all go through our phases and
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chapters and our moments.
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Um, what, what do you think?
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What do you think is the connection between spirituality
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and things like psychedelics in my, I mean, I definitely smoke
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And I definitely feel like when I'm studying my lessons, like
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my, my Yoda lessons, uh, I like to smoke a little bit because
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I feel like I can really absorb what I'm reading, you know,
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because I don't want the words just to be words.
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I really want to feel what these lessons are teaching me.
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And so for me, marijuana in that sense helps me out.
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I haven't tried mushrooms, but I am interested, I want to do
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a mushroom trip but I hear that you have to go with the right
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I mean, I don't even know where to get it.
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But listen, I'm flying, we'll be out his name anyway.
51:56
But yeah, they do say that you have to have, like, I think they
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call it a trip sitter, which is somebody that can really calm
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me down because it is a very overwhelming experience.
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And I did it actually alone.
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I didn't want it to be, I'm doing this for the party or for it
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to be like this turn up thing which some people can do.
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Especially if it's your first time, I don't recommend doing
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that because it's just, it is you feel something or you see
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something or you're not exactly in, I don't even know how to
52:26
You're not here, you're like somewhere else and it was, it's
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So, being around the right people is everything.
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If not, if you're not going to do that, but you do marijuana
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and other, other, other things that I just, I get of getting
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my brain like alternative.
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I do like the wrong drug.
52:45
That's why I don't do that.
52:45
And I also feel like you have to be in almost a right state of
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mind in a safe space for sure because I know when I was, when
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I was depressed, I couldn't handle marijuana at all.
52:55
I felt like it just enhanced everything.
52:59
But when I'm in a good point in my life, I feel like a little bit
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a little because you've grown so much and because you've found
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so much peace and spirituality, your circle, I'm sure has
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Is that something you're able to talk about with your new friends
53:13
or even some of your old friends or?
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I think when you, I think as you evolve and you raise your own
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vibration, you start attracting the right people that can
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meet you at that wavelength.
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You know what I mean?
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So all of my friends, um beautiful people, people, heart centered
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God, centered people that I never thought I would have and
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even meeting you ladies here, I think it's definitely a right
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So that's so true, honestly.
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Yeah, and people can only meet you where they've met themselves
53:39
So like you said, you're going to attract people that are riding
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along on that same wavelength or that same belief system as
53:45
And also with your like man, like props to you guys, so many
53:48
different versions of yourself that you guys have been able
53:51
That is a serious, serious, serious goals.
53:55
And personally, it's been so nice being able to talk to you
53:58
have such a beautiful, like I said, beautiful energy and I
54:01
Although not everybody here will have the same approach or
54:04
the same belief systems.
54:05
And even if we stand firm in our beliefs, we're able to have
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I feel like that is seriously lacking in this society.
54:12
It is so much, you know, my way you're wrong.
54:14
And if you don't believe what I believe you're ignorant, it's
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like, ok, let me ask you questions and you ask me questions
54:18
and it's like such a beautiful conversation.
54:20
So we're super thankful for you coming on here and being open
54:23
and having these like amazing conversations where we can
54:26
definitely learn from each other.
54:29
Also, I know you're a business woman, you're working on things
54:31
as well and you're kind of merging your passions and what you
54:34
have found into being able to, you know, express it to the world
54:38
So tell me a little bit about what you're working on.
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I know you're working on something.
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Yeah, I've launched Sweet Soul, which is now has transformed
54:44
into a mindfulness company.
54:45
So my intention is to bring meditation and yoga to communities
54:49
of people of color, especially because I feel like there's
54:52
not a lot of representation in that community.
54:54
So I'm excited just to kind of bring them more.
54:57
Yeah, make sure you guys check it out and yeah, make sure you
54:59
guys follow her on social media for more information on that
55:02
Thank you so much for tuning into another episode of Girl.
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Let me tell you, I'm Jessa Flores.
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