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Getting Spiritually High with Dulce Candy

Girl, Let Me Tell You
Dulce Candy gets intimate with the girls on her path of spirituality, Jess gets candid with her faith, and the ladies tell all about their spiritual journeys as astrology, magic, psychedelics, and more gets discussed.
Show transcript
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I grew up like, um just really loving like the witchy spells
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and like, I love Harry Potter.
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Harry Potter, but that kind of spirituality.
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I loved Harry Potter.
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What are you in Jessica?
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You tell me you're the one that I, I'm not.
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No slytherin.
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I'm definitely right now, but you're, I feel like I'm a Yeah
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I'm just always trying to find the, I feel like, yeah.
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Yeah.
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What's up?
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I'm Jessica Flores.
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I'm Ivanna Rojas and I'm and welcome back to another episode
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of Girl.
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Let me tell you.
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Ok.
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So personally I'm really excited for this episode.
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I'm excited to learn this one's all about spirituality.
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This is all about what you're going to do to kind of find your
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calm and all the chaos here that happens on earth, which we
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all know it can get very ratchet sometimes here and we all have
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to find our peace.
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And so, I mean, I just want to know out of curiosity, what do
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you guys do?
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You know, to find that?
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And then I'll kind of get into like what I have turned to that
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has really helped me.
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I don't know, ground myself, I guess in all this chaos.
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I pray a lot.
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I do.
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I sage my, my space.
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I have crystals.
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I go on walks, I sit at the beach, I talk to the earth and mama
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mama, I spend time with my family.
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I do things that to me are like pure and that's when I like ground
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myself the most because I realize that the most simple pure
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things is really what like just calms my frequency fully because
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that's all that I don't know.
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For me it's just beautiful.
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I love that.
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I feel like I kind of got off track.
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You don't like we have a good year of you're journaling, you're
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doing all that stuff in the first episode.
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I said a journal but it's been a while.
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I used to journal a lot.
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I like to spread a lot of in my house.
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Like whenever I clean, I'm like, let me just, I don't know what
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this does, but I think it says good energy.
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So I just do that.
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Um I feel like talking to a good friend, like having like a good
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deep combo.
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I feel like I need to get back to my spirituality and all that
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stuff.
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I recently went to like a crystal shop and bought some crystals
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which I may or may not bring out in this episode.
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Um But yeah, that's what I do.
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I just, I need to get back to that.
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So I'm really excited about this, this episode because I want
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to see like what, what everyone is doing to get back to spirituality
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and you know, I don't know if we wanted to do.
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Yeah, I do.
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Actually, I'm really, really excited.
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It's somebody that I feel like a lot of people have been following
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on her journey for a very long time and it's so cool to see the
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evolution that people go through in the different kind of
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chapters in their life that they welcome.
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And you see that happening on social media, we cannot continue
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to be the same person.
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We were not even like a year ago.
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So I'm super excited to bring meditation teacher candy on
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to you.
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Welcome, welcome.
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We're so excited.
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I'm so honored to be here and to share a beautiful space with
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you guys.
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So thank you.
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Could you tell us a little bit about your story and how you became
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the med candy?
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Yeah.
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Well, I was a beauty influencer for 15 years.
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Um started my journey in the military and then beauty influencer
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And um I did really a lot of wonderful activities and incredible
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things through that space.
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But I also found myself in a place where I was no longer in alignment
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I wasn't passionate, I wasn't happy even though these were
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external things that deemed me successful or things that
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I'm supposed to have to be happy.
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Something just didn't feel in alignment anymore.
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And so that's when I started my own spiritual journey and then
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having my son, which also activated, you know, my spirituality
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even more in my journey.
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Did you have like a breaking point that made you really reach
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out to spirituality?
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Like, can you tell us about that?
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Was that a thing?
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Yeah, I think it was, it had a lot to do with my career just because
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um, I think sometimes, you know, in our careers, we go through
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many ups and downs and sometimes it's kind of hard to navigate
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the low point.
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You know, I feel like there's always this big moment in our
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careers, but there's also the journey of coming back down
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and learning and growing and then going back up and to me, it
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was, it had a lot to do with that, you know, just going through
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the journey of up and down and, and embracing all of those valleys
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and the peaks.
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So how does somebody for anyone that hasn't, how do you start
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a spiritual journey?
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Like, do you like, I feel like there's no handbook for that
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like Ivana was saying something triggered us.
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Like, what's the first step to taking a spiritual journey
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Is it like maybe you recall what that was for you?
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I think it just depends on the person.
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You know, I think the most important thing I feel is just to
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really listen to your intuition and that calling because
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that's always kind of guiding your path.
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You know, there's always these little seeds that I feel like
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a higher power is leading to us.
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And if we settle down and quiet our mind, I feel like we can really
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tune in and start to listen.
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Even if we don't know the path, you know what I mean?
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Oh, that's interesting.
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So you mentioned like higher power and for me personally,
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my faith is super, super important.
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I've tried personally, this is my journey.
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And again, like everybody has their own thing, but I've tried
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meditation.
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But even then I wouldn't be able to completely quiet my mind
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or even find peace in it personally.
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So the thing that has truthfully like grounded me and made
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me feel good was, was God and faith and studying the Bible and
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things like that, which I am still like seriously on this path
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Like I do not know, like I feel like the more I explore that the
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less I know in a sense, but for you, what would that?
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And for people that are spiritual, that maybe aren't religious
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what is that higher power for you guys?
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Um That's a good question.
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I think, I think that's something that everybody, you know
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it all depends on each person.
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But honestly, I have been on a yo, I've been studying yoga and
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Hansa yoga and meditation.
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And what I've learned is to find God within ourselves, not
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anywhere else externally but that light within you that it
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goes beyond all of your, your, your wants and your desires
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your ego, your mind chatter, clearing all of that out and
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going into the center of who you are, which is God.
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Right?
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A reflection of God is what I believe.
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It's nothing outside and it's finding, it's finding that
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connection within you, within your soul that I feel like nothing
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anything external, nothing can really satisfy that craving
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Right.
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What do you do with people that I'm a big astrology person?
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Like, every day, I'm like, what I, I actually when you sat down
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like, what's your sign?
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What's your sign?
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What do you do with people that kind of like, question that
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Like, I feel like that this is not a tangible thing or like spirituality
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So like some people will make fun of me like, oh, you're always
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into astrology.
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I'm like, what do you, do?
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You feel like you have to prove that to people or like, how much
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you love God?
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Like, what do you do with, with people that just kind of don't
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believe in the same things you believe?
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You know, that's really interesting because I feel like in
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my journey, I've also gotten a lot of backlash also from expressing
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my spiritual, just, just being a human and exploring myself
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and even wanting to learn all the different religions and
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everything.
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But um I think we shouldn't judge, you know, each other's journeys
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because there's, I mean, there's no way that I can, I can sit
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here and say this is the right.
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This is the truth.
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You know what I mean?
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I know.
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I don't know how to explain that.
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I love that.
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That's so true.
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I was really excited that you were on this episode because
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I'm a big, I'm not like a, I'm a big like if I see a sign, I get really
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nervous.
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I'm like, what is like sometimes I see like three crows, the
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Latino culture where it's like I saw three baby crows and I
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hate when I see shit before I take a flight.
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I'm like, oh my God, this is the last one but I saw three baby
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crows one time where like my rosary recently just broke.
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I actually have it here.
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Um And so I was there so I was actually, I probably should say
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this because I'm single right now but I was on a date just because
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I have holes out there and um I was on a date.
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I don't, I was on a date and on that same day like I was sometimes
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my necklace get tied up because my hair would be in the way.
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So I guess I yanked it and I was like, oh shit, I was like, I always
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said something, my rosary broke something bad that means
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something bad.
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So I'm like, does that mean something bad?
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Like is it a is it done or like sometimes like I wear like I have
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a evil eye right here and sometimes it'll break, does any of
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that mean anything?
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I mean, I think it all depends on the person.
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I find a lot of meaning and a lot of different things.
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I really do feel like just life in general is always giving
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you signs everywhere.
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Do you feel like these signs that sometimes we read into?
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Because, I mean, yeah, I've looked into superstitions too
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especially before I really got into my faith.
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I'd be like, oh, that means something bad.
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Do you feel like sometimes it's all in our minds?
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Yeah, I want to know that because I'll be like, I'll be overthinking
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well, truthfully and again, and I think it was really cool
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what you said before we started this podcast, you said, you
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know what?
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I don't even, you, you said, you know, I don't want people to
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consider me an expert.
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It's more from your experience.
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I, I definitely want to clarify that to everybody listening
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We're not asking you questions based off of it.
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Is this the truth?
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Because truthfully we are all trying to figure it out.
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It's more so from your experience.
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Is that something you believed or something that's helped
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you out is like following superstitions and things.
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Yeah.
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Honestly, for me, it does, there's like the same thing, like
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I saw a hawk this morning on the way to the shoot and I was like
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that has to mean something, you know, I just feel like, like
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for me I feel like God talks to us in so many different ways.
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Albert Einstein has a quote that says, coincidences are God's
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way of being anonymous.
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Like you don't know, but you're like, what this feeling, just
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things that you feel that you're like, wait, it's almost like
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when you see somebody and like, there's people that I see and
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I'm like, I'm going to have some sort of futurist person.
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I don't know why.
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And then two years later, we're like in a movie together or
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like just like the little intuition, the film that you have
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in your heart that's separate from the ego is something special
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and you can harbor that by having a clear channel.
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And that's why for me like crystals.
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I, I mean, I think God in general, for me, the source is God.
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It's one thing and, and I see it and everything.
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I feel it and everything and I pray in multiple ways.
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I have a little altar.
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I have my grandma, I have a statue of Mary.
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I have things that I just connect to, but I also use things like
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nature and being in church or being in church or crystals on
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my heart just to like clear the channel within me.
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And I don't know if that means anything or maybe it's a personal
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thing, but it just kind of like gives me a, a neutral place to
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really like think about things instead of coming from a, you
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know what I mean?
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Like, crystals became a big thing for me.
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It's like the energy of it because it's the earth, it's like
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a frequency that hold the frequency that you can vibrate to
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kind of like music.
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I don't know if you can relate to that.
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But yeah, I think, I think we forget so much about our connection
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to nature in general.
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You know, like how we are a part of nature and we're not separate
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from it.
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So when we go out barefoot and we walk on, on earth, you know
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earth, grounding is word for me or like the crystals, like
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you said, like when we're connecting and making ourselves
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a part of that same source energy, we are able to communicate
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more.
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I feel interesting in regards to the comment that we're talking
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about coincidences, speaking of which, every night, OK,
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every night, I pray that OK, because I'm single and my dream
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hold on.
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My dream is to genuinely find a great guy, a guy that believes
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in a lot of the same beliefs that I have.
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So I pray at night.
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You know, I just say, I pray for my future spouse.
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I pray for my future family.
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I pray that you know all these things.
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And I open up my Instagram right after I cry and I was crying
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praying like that's how powerful prayer is for me because
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I will sit there in bed and I will literally start bawling crying
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because I feel the power of the Holy Spirit.
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I buy on my knees.
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I cry on my knee.
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It just comes out when you really, when you really tap into
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that power that I have.
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And by the way, for many years, I was not related, I was like
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what does that even mean?
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I don't feel God, I was raised in Catholic church until I really
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felt hey, and understood what people were talking about.
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But anyway, back to the point, I was crying, I was like, oh,
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like I love you God.
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And then I opened up my Instagram and like, you know, a couple
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of minutes after and the very first post was praying for and
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waiting for the correct man is worth, I forget what it was like
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it was worth being patient for.
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And I started crying again because I felt that I was like, that
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is crazy.
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Like I genuinely feel like that was God coming and telling
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me like you're on the right path like you're doing, you're
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doing great, sweet.
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He's coming.
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And I can't wait to have him on the podcast.
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Did you, did you pray for your partner because you've been
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with your partner for what?
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17 years?
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I did not pray for you.
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It was, it was literally nothing.
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I was 18.
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So I had, I was so naive, you know what I mean?
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It was a whole different time in my life, but I believe in that
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I believe in what you're doing and like manifesting right
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Intention, intention, and that.
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Yeah.
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And spirituality can sometimes cause such a big divide when
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in truth to say it's supposed to be something about just rooted
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in love.
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I feel like I pray a lot for my career because I feel like I'm
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not like a super, I feel like I'm more spiritual, you know,
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everything I feel like there is a plan for me on this planet
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and I'm like, OK, whatever that is, I'm just going to follow
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that.
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But it wasn't until I had like a really dark time right before
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the pandemic where I was about to be evicted from my apartment
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I was just doing, I had left my six figure job and I was doing
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comedies full time like, yo, what the fuck am I doing?
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And I was like, there's no other way I can get through this.
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That's when I started building my relationship with God because
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there has, there's no reason why I should have made it here
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because I literally did not have rent money each month.
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So that's when I started praying and I was not crying, but I
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was praying girl.
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And also when I was in a really abusive relationship and I couldn't
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get over it.
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I was like, what is the one thing I'm not doing?
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Like, what is one thing I could do differently that I'm not
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doing?
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And I just started praying So, ever since that relationship
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I've just been praying every night, I'm like, I'm going to
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just pray, like, every time I pray something good and beautiful
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happens.
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But I'm not like I feel guilty sometimes because I'm like,
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you ladies are chilling with God and he's right there on the
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couch.
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But I'm just like, I just, it's not a big part of my life.
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So I guess sometimes I do feel guilty because I'm like, I stopped
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going to church when I was like 16 and I'm just trying to, I mean
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who knows what the future holds?
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I mean, hanging out with Jessica, I'm like, I need to, I need
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to put a picture of God in my apartment.
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Oh my God.
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But I do, I do have the, the dinner that they went to I can.
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But I do because I'm Dominican.
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I feel like every person that's Latino has to have some kind
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of like worship thing in their apartment.
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So I went to store and I bought the last supper and I hung it up
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in my kitchen.
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So that's my thing.
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That's how I honor God.
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So I want to know like, um you know, from your guys' perspective
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because I know spirituality is obviously the thing that has
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really, really helped you guys.
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I want to kind of get into the realm of like spirits and demons
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because truthfully even hold on.
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I want to talk about this.
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I know, I know everybody gets scared about that.
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But truthfully if you believe in something that is, you know
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a good light, there's obviously the darkness to duality
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and that's like nothing to be, you know, I don't, I don't think
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that's something that people should shy away from talking
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about or addressing because truthfully we all deal with duality
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within ourselves, within, you know, whatever you feel like
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is around you and I feel like unless you address it, it's how
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are you going to ever be able to tackle that in your own life
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How are you gonna ever be able to like, approach it in your life
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So for you and your experiences when you have felt, you know
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what you would say like that bad energy or you feel like you
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have maybe like an omen.
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Do you turn to like or like what exactly is it that's helping
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you?
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Oh my God.
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Yeah, I've done Limpias before.
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I love spiritual bathing also with a also um just to kind of
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cleanse my Aa Florida water.
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It's kind of like a cologne, but it's used in the spiritual
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community.
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Um But I think those things are so important even when you're
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in any kind of environment just to cleanse yourself.
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Even if it's not a negative environment, I think it's important
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to just kind of like neutralize the energy in your body and
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whatever you absorbed because even our hair, you know, it's
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known as antennas, it absorbs energy also, you know, I've
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actually heard that.
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Um, yeah, I mean, I've definitely felt a lot of, I mean, not
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lately but I felt negative energies before and I think ignorance
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of not knowing what it is scared me a lot.
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So, learning about different religions and different, different
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just learning about all of it has really empowered me to not
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be so afraid of the things that I don't know or the things that
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I might be perceiving as evil to what are some of the religions
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that you, because you might mentioned that a few times, like
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what are the other religions that you kind of study?
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Um Well, I'm studying a lot of yogic philosophy right now and
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just understanding their gods and how um like what they worship
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or, you know, what their spiritual practices are because
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I grew up Catholic also.
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And then I um I ventured into Christianity and everything
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and then I felt a lot of fear from like my community being projected
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onto me.
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And so the best way for me was to learn about everything else
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and to understand it and not be afraid or judge what other people
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believe.
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You know.
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That's kind of scary though.
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Like if you, I mean, again, I don't really take, it's not that
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I don't take, it's not a big, huge part of my life.
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I feel like I do pray but to have your community kind of be mad
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at you for making your own decision.
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Because a lot of the times we're born into these religions
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like I grew up Catholic but I never questioned it.
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Like my mom was Catholic.
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I got the communion, the confirmation I'm ready for marriage
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I'm ready for my.
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But I haven't, I just feel like I think that people should have
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the right to explore what's the right fit for them.
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But I don't want, I want to get canceled.
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I don't know any, you know, like I went to college, I went to
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Brazil.
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It was by mistake.
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I wanted to go for fun but it was a grad class.
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It was a mess, but I was a mess.
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But we did study like and, and I was even, it's not a practice
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that I want to participate.
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It was dope to see how other people kind of welcome Gods or their
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God into their community.
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So I think we should be open to hearing other people's lifestyles
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or stuff like that.
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And it doesn't mean that we're going to be practicing it.
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But just understanding people I think is so important because
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I feel like religion and spirituality can sometimes cause
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such a big divide when in truth, it's supposed to be something
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about just rooted in love, right?
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Or maybe even a compass for life.
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I think we were talking before we went on air about like with
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comedy.
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Like I feel like I couldn't be here if it didn't have some kind
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of spirituality because I'm like, sometimes you get lost
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in life.
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So it's nice to have a place to go back to.
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It's like this is my compass.
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This is maybe that could be like the 10 commandments for someone
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or, you know, that's how you can navigate through life because
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life gets kind of scary.
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Sometimes it does get scary.
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And we were even talking about like, existential.
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Oh, yeah, we talk about this off camera, which I've had so many
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more, particularly weirdly when I come back from a vacation
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and I had been partying or something and like in the past I'd
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come back and I'd just lay in bed having a crazy existential
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Those are scary.
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I have one once a week when I'm doing comedy.
19:05
I just, you know, I am a Pisces Moon.
19:09
Um, so we live in existential dread, but it's just like the
19:12
idea of the fact that we only get one life and, you know, and
19:15
now that I'm seeing my niece grow up, like it's just scary to
19:19
me to be like, I don't know, I think anyone that maybe has a kid
19:22
or has felt a death in their family sometimes questions like
19:26
their purpose on life.
19:27
So I've just been having a lot of like, I'm like, what am I supposed
19:30
to be doing?
19:30
Am I doing the right thing?
19:31
Am I living life the right way?
19:32
Am I on the right path?
19:33
I, I just think I just also overthink, I overthink everything
19:37
So do you need meditation?
19:39
I want, I want to do a, I've thought about doing a, what are some
19:44
of your meditations that because your meditation teacher
19:46
what are some things you do or teacher?
19:49
So I teach, I teach primordial sound meditation, which is
19:53
um a mantra that is a sound that was created out in the universe
19:57
the moment of your birth.
19:58
So it's used to calculated at the time of your birth and the
20:02
place that you were born.
20:03
So it's very powerful.
20:04
It's calculated mathematically.
20:06
And you're given this mantra in a ceremony and you meditate
20:10
with this mantra and it becomes the tool that takes you from
20:13
this state of consciousness to back to where you were born
20:16
to back where God resides.
20:18
So it is a spiritual journey and it takes you back and forth
20:21
and um it's really great, you know, like a lot of people use
20:25
it, of course for stress and health benefits and all of that
20:28
and overthinking.
20:29
But really how do we make our sound?
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Um I would have to give it to you that way.
20:35
We're another teacher, another primordial sound meditation
20:38
teacher.
20:39
Yeah.
20:41
Now the time they were born, just random tangent, what time
20:44
were you born?
20:44
7 45 pm.
20:45
You like six ish, I think seven pm or am that makes all the difference
20:50
3 p.m. I was 1 10 in the morning.
20:53
I know, but I have a, I have a tattoo on the side.
20:58
I have a bunch of tattoos.
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I was 18.
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That's a special number.
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If you think so.
21:02
What does that mean?
21:03
It's an angel number one.
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My girls don't, I don't know the ones over here that, like,
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they were like they were like, oh, my God, we got number.
21:16
That's crazy.
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Well, I was, I was born.
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What do you think?
21:19
The biggest between religion and spirituality?
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Oh yeah, I wouldn't know that.
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Yeah, I think for you, for me.
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Yeah, for me personally.
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Um I think it's just following your own path.
21:29
You know, there's no dogma attached to it.
21:31
There's really, it's just you exploring your own inner depth
21:35
and you, you finding that truth within you, you know, nowhere
21:39
else.
21:40
I think that's what it means.
21:41
And I think we, we talked a lot off camera but we're also talking
21:44
about like finding your highest self.
21:45
Like, do you ever arrive there?
21:48
Because some days I'll have moments and I'm like, yo, like
21:50
I made it and then now just to be transparent, I was like, yo
21:54
what time am I going to get there?
21:55
Because I have been traveling like even before I got here.
22:00
When does my highest self come in?
22:01
When do you meet the girl?
22:04
I, I've been traveling for the highest self, 33 years, 30 hours
22:08
And I'm like, when do you ever get there?
22:10
Because like how much work I've done work, like I've sat there
22:12
and every day, like, I've done different techniques.
22:15
But I'm like, when did I meet her?
22:17
Because I mean, do you think I feel like I have had visions of
22:22
my highest self of myself.
22:23
Like I have, I have been like, whoa, like, there's like little
22:26
visions that I have of what I imagine myself being like the
22:29
highest form of purest form, the most beautiful form in the
22:32
most closest to source form.
22:34
I have seen it and I know that it's gonna take a lot of discipline
22:38
and sacrifices and like responsibility to get there.
22:41
And I, and I, and I can't wait for that moment when I'm like,
22:43
ok, I'm gonna stop this, stop doing things because that's
22:47
where I can get closer.
22:47
It's like a, it's a kind of like eliminating all the barriers
22:50
that get me as close as I can with.
22:52
So, so I know the vision or the version of me that I think is my
22:57
highest self, but it's just a matter of like, really wanting
23:00
it and getting, you know what I mean?
23:01
And time obviously, but like, there's a point when you're
23:04
like, ok, I'm 33 34 year old.
23:05
Like I know what's right and I know what's wrong and like, you
23:08
know what makes you feel good?
23:09
Exactly.
23:09
Like what if I really, when I really want it I'm going to make
23:12
it happen and I think it's around this time Ivana.
23:15
What does your inner source look like?
23:17
Does she have clothes?
23:18
Does she, how does she clothes?
23:20
Just like chicken nuggets here too?
23:22
I'm kidding.
23:23
I'm like, what?
23:24
No, she's like, she's glowing and she's wearing like white
23:30
and, like, smiling and there's kids all these, like a school
23:33
of kids around and I'm like, in a field and I'm like, just playing
23:37
It's a weird thing.
23:38
But like, it's like, almost like in the future I see myself
23:41
devoting my whole self to service to kids in different places
23:45
But I can't do it until I have a platform and I have a voice and
23:48
I have, you know, like a reason to like, step out into that world
23:51
and knowledge to give to kids and resources to help.
23:55
So I'm just, I'm walking this path right now to get to that version
24:00
and I can't wait to get there, you know, and I know that God is
24:03
leading me every step of the way.
24:05
So that's kind of like, I just harbor my life and I try to be the
24:08
best version of myself every day, even though I do things that
24:11
I know that aren't the best.
24:13
Like what?
24:14
Like drinking.
24:15
I mean, I could say the same thing for people that try to be as
24:19
good as they can in their faith.
24:20
I messed up all the time.
24:21
Like, look, I'm sipping on wine and like, you know, but it's
24:24
a bad thing.
24:25
But you try your best every single day and you will fail.
24:28
You're human.
24:29
We are literally flawed.
24:31
We make mistakes every single day or like the ways that I eat
24:35
or maybe not saying some words that I shouldn't be saying or
24:39
you know, talking, saying things, gossip, whatever, gossiping
24:42
things that are just not conducive or helpful for the energy
24:46
like a positive energy, you know, like I know what's good
24:48
I'm not saying that there's a good and a bad, but you know what
24:51
I mean?
24:51
So I think that's like the biggest thing for me in my life right
24:54
now is like just walking the path of where I know I should be
24:57
and, and, and the universe just waiting for me to get there
25:00
You know what I mean?
25:01
But it takes time and experience.
25:03
I have a question has got a reading.
25:07
What do you think about that?
25:08
And because I, I don't know if you seen the movie Carmen with
25:11
Beyonce, it was like a thing.
25:14
It was like a while ago, but ever since I've seen the movie and
25:17
the Death Card came out, I was like, I can't do tarot cards,
25:19
but then I started getting into them again and then I get really
25:22
creeped out whenever I see the death card even though it doesn't
25:25
mean a bad thing.
25:26
But I just always think about that.
25:27
The car, what's the science behind that?
25:30
I would love to know because you or does anybody here know,
25:33
does, I don't know the actual answer but I, I've done tarot
25:37
cards.
25:38
Um, I've gotten a reading before and I also have my own cards
25:41
and I think it just works from intuition and also the knowledge
25:44
and self experience that you have.
25:46
I don't think it's like fortune telling or something in the
25:49
future.
25:49
It's nothing like that.
25:50
I think it's more so look at, it's just symbolism of what it
25:53
could mean.
25:54
And then paired with other cards, it just tells a story.
25:57
So a person that can read cards is just reading symbols.
26:00
Basically, it's how I perceived it to be.
26:02
So what, what is if somebody wants to go get like a tarot card
26:05
reading and they're looking for answers?
26:08
But you're saying, obviously you said it's not telling the
26:11
future.
26:12
You're not like um saying this is what's going to happen if
26:14
you get like the death card for instance.
26:16
So what exactly is the, the reasoning why people would go get
26:19
them?
26:20
I don't know.
26:21
I used to get them when I felt lost or like if I was in a bad relationship
26:23
like, yo, what does this mean?
26:25
Or like just kind of like if you're on the right path, but I just
26:29
stopped messing with them because there's a point where it's
26:32
like I just, for me it's like, what was the point of knowing
26:34
the future?
26:35
Like I should just make the mess of now.
26:37
I like, I was just always trying to find that what happen in
26:39
the future and then I heard that if you get too many readings
26:41
it kind of changes your past.
26:42
I was like, you know what, I'm going to just chill like I should
26:45
just make the most of this moment.
26:47
But once in a while, like, you know, we're having girls night
26:49
I'm like a but one time I did that and it was a bad reading and
26:52
I was like, that's why I stopped messing with them because
26:54
that girl had a bad year, the year after I did that.
26:56
And I was like, oh my God.
26:57
Yeah, but I just think all of this is just guidance.
26:59
I think that we don't really have life is really whatever you
27:03
make it.
27:03
So it's like if you want to follow a certain guide or a spiritual
27:08
religion, it's just to give you like, I guess meaning every
27:11
day on earth because, you know, everyone arrives to it at different
27:15
points.
27:15
I just want to chime in too and just give because tarot cards
27:19
aren't also just always about spirituality and they kind
27:21
of talk to the universal human experience.
27:23
And you know, if you guys look at folk tell folk storytellers
27:27
or just like ST uh stories being passed down even as much as
27:30
the Bible, it's really about kind of taking those stories
27:32
which encapsulate human lessons and then allow, you know
27:37
people to really kind of then interpret that for them their
27:40
own journey.
27:40
That's what I was gonna say.
27:42
That's what I was gonna say about that.
27:43
It's like you kind of have a question when you're, you have
27:47
a question while you're doing the card and you have this story
27:50
of what the card is and you get to interpret it personally and
27:54
kind of give yourself an answer.
27:55
It's kind of like an intuitive answer has nothing to do with
27:57
Like this is telling you exactly what to do.
27:59
It's like you have a question, you, you kind of get like a little
28:01
guidance and you figure out your, yourself, you figure it
28:04
out yourself.
28:05
You know what I mean?
28:06
Like it to go take your own home, you know, having a relationship
28:10
with another individual that is so intimate, that is spiritual
28:15
You know what I mean?
28:15
Is that what I have?
28:16
It's a cosmic, I think I had not because I did anyone grow up
28:23
watching any magic kind of shows?
28:26
Well, not only obviously Walter Mercado, he was in every home
28:29
but maybe a charmed or I was, I feel like not enough people give
28:35
charm their flowers.
28:36
I was like me and my sister grew up watching Charm.
28:40
Did you have a witch that you related to?
28:41
Like, as one of the sisters?
28:43
Well, I didn't watch charm but I grew up like, just really loving
28:46
the witchy spells and I loved Harry Potter.
28:50
Harry Potter.
28:50
But that counts as spirituality.
28:52
I loved Harry Potter.
28:53
What house are you in?
28:54
Jessica?
28:55
You tell me you're the one that I, I'm not.
29:00
No Slytherin.
29:01
I'm definitely right now.
29:06
But you're, I feel like I'm a, yeah, I'm just always trying
29:13
to find, yeah, I feel like there's nothing wrong with Slytherin
29:20
There is this for the Slytherin people out there.
29:22
There's nothing wrong with that.
29:23
Always slithering you.
29:24
Right.
29:24
I'm just not honest.
29:25
So, she puts me in.
29:27
But, you know, Harry Potter was both a Slytherin and huff and
29:30
Gryffindor.
29:31
Yeah, because he, he had some traits.
29:32
It was like the whole thing.
29:33
It was part of the movie.
29:36
It was in a movie.
29:37
So, did anybody watch, read any fantasy books besides Harry
29:41
Potter?
29:41
Like, I just feel like it was like a thing.
29:44
I just, speaking of fantasy books.
29:46
Do you believe in tantra?
29:49
No, I haven't.
29:50
No, I just started that word just came to my little hearts of
29:54
spirituality, the yoga and then astrology.
29:59
Well, spirituality, the word is spiritual ritual.
30:02
It's spirit ritual.
30:04
It's like whatever.
30:05
Yeah, it has nothing to do.
30:06
Like spirituality isn't like a religion.
30:07
It's just like what rituals you use to, to harbor and to give
30:11
love to your spirit.
30:12
So whether that's praying the bible, going to church, reading
30:15
writing yoga, like it's just your spiritual ritual.
30:18
That's spirituality, you know.
30:19
So it's not like that word.
30:20
It just kind of like a, you know what I mean, it's just like a
30:23
general, general genre of how you harbor your spirit.
30:27
And I have a definition for you guys on tantra.
30:29
So in Sanskrit, the word tantra means woven together people
30:32
who practice Buddhist and Hindu meditation may also practice
30:35
like tantric sex as a way to weave the physical with the spirit
30:38
spirituality and sexuality and emphasizes the importance
30:43
I mean, I've heard of that, just think about having a relationship
30:47
with another individual that is so intimate, that is spiritual
30:51
You know what I mean?
30:52
Is that what I have?
30:53
It's a cosmic, I think I had to cosmic.
30:56
Not because sorry, what's the difference?
30:59
I already consider sex a spiritual thing.
31:01
So what more, how much more spiritual can it get?
31:05
Like and, and I will say, you know, I'm speaking, I'm transparent
31:08
like for me, like before in my twenties, I don't having sex
31:10
it was just like a thing, whatever.
31:12
But now as I'm in my thirties, like it really means like I'm
31:14
connecting with that person, like the last person I was with
31:17
like, I love him.
31:18
So like, is that how do you know the difference between regular
31:21
sex and something that's more spiritual?
31:22
I mean, I don't know if you have the answer a question but like
31:24
for me, the whole, the whole act of it is spiritual.
31:27
So I'm like, what is, I guess tantric makes it more exciting
31:31
I don't know, I don't know.
31:32
What does anybody know what the techniques are for that.
31:34
I just know like from what my friend, he does breath work and
31:38
part of it is tantric and he just is, it's about connecting
31:42
to the breath with the other person.
31:43
Like being one that's like what I know.
31:45
So, but it's must to do with, it's not even like sexual, like
31:48
you can be intimate with just breath work with the person.
31:51
Like it's not even about being naked.
31:52
It's just about being face to face and connecting with the
31:54
person and being one like one breath, one heart.
31:58
I don't know about doing that.
32:00
I don't want someone in my face like that.
32:01
Sorry, I just say I'm going to look more, we need some more examples
32:07
of and again, that's just one thought that I had, I don't really
32:10
know exactly the definition, but it's just about really connecting
32:12
with the person that you're with and not even in a sexual way
32:15
just a sole way.
32:17
I feel like if you're OK, as people would say, like making love
32:20
with someone, right?
32:21
Because I know like sex, you know, having sex nowadays in our
32:24
society has become something super casual.
32:26
Obviously, people are like, you know, it's your body could
32:29
do what, you know, do whatever you want.
32:31
But it has in a sense I feel like lost a little bit of that.
32:35
This is actually a connection like you're really making a
32:38
connection with someone every time you sleep with them.
32:40
And I know some people don't, aren't going to agree with me
32:43
And they're gonna say, well, I can, you know, sleep with someone
32:45
and not feel anything.
32:46
But I genuinely do feel like a part of you, you leave a part of
32:49
each other with each other.
32:51
So I feel like regardless if you're doing breathwork or not
32:53
if you're doing it with someone that you really love and this
32:56
is like your person, you're going to feel that spiritual connection
32:59
every single time.
33:00
You know, that's why maybe you love my last guy because I loved
33:03
him.
33:04
But let's start talking about sex because I was like, you know
33:08
but it's part of spirituality, it's connecting with other
33:11
people even.
33:12
Would you ever be friends with someone that isn't your level
33:14
of spiritual?
33:15
Like sometimes I feel like I am connecting with people and
33:18
I'm like, I don't think we're at the same level in our spiritual
33:21
journey.
33:21
So I do keep them at a distance.
33:23
Do you ever feel that way if you ever?
33:27
And that's a really good question because you come from an
33:30
industry and I'm sure friendships where it's, you know, we
33:33
all know that beauty, you know, social media world got a little
33:36
bit crazy there for a while and priorities are kind of all out
33:38
of whack.
33:39
Um when you made your transition, like, how was it with your
33:42
friends and friends that maybe didn't follow that path with
33:45
you.
33:45
Yeah, I went through a period where I had no friends.
33:48
I was completely alone for almost two years just because I
33:52
felt like I had to do a lot of work within myself.
33:54
And in order for me to give my true authentic self without my
33:57
ego, like putting up walls and guarding and protecting me
34:00
I just kind of had to stay away from people, but it just happen
34:03
naturally, you know.
34:04
but also I think a big part was that in the industry, I was going
34:09
to events and being around a lot of environments where I'm
34:12
like, we can't even go deep with each other.
34:15
There's no connection here.
34:16
Everything is extremely superficial and I don't want to,
34:20
you know, I didn't want to spend my life like that.
34:22
I wanted you to be in this, in a space like this.
34:25
But having these connections and having these type of conversations
34:29
what is real like past surface level?
34:32
Yeah.
34:32
One of my friends asked me, I had some, you know, like we were
34:34
making new friends, one of my friends asked me one time like
34:37
what are you?
34:37
So and so connect on and I thought it was a really good question
34:40
because then it makes you peel back the layers of what is this
34:42
friendship about?
34:43
Like are we connecting?
34:44
Because what is the mutual interest here?
34:46
Are we connecting?
34:46
Because we're both like growing or is it like a negative connection
34:49
I think to be honest, I just cut someone off.
34:52
I'm like, you know, I don't think we're connecting on something
34:55
positive.
34:55
It wasn't bad but it was like, I don't, I think after that situation
34:58
happened, we didn't have anything to talk about anymore.
35:01
So I was like, I like you but I don't know if we're going to be
35:03
doing this journey for the rest of our lives.
35:05
It's so true.
35:06
It's so true.
35:07
Like I feel like now spirituality is trending in, in a way that
35:12
could be exploited, exploited and they could be like, you
35:16
know, people are following gurus that have no knowledge or
35:19
education, proper education or whatever it is.
35:21
Like, what do you feel about that in the industry with the spirituality
35:24
Like, do you think that you should be careful about certain
35:26
things or like, how do you decipher discern?
35:29
Like I think that's why it's so important for us as individuals
35:33
to do the inner work, you know, and like you said, like, follow
35:35
gurus who actually have like, yo and I know me too.
35:40
And like Jesus Christ, people who have been self realized
35:43
for real, like in, in, in this incarnation in the world.
35:47
Um And learning about everything is so empowering also about
35:51
every religion and everything else.
35:53
When you empower yourself with knowledge, you can't be easily
35:56
swayed because I know when I first joined a Christian church
36:00
and I had no, I was pretty naive and people would tell me, oh
36:04
you can't be into crystals through state.
36:05
You can't study yoga.
36:07
Um This is not what God wants.
36:08
You're going to hell and this and that I would be so afraid that
36:11
even meditation became scary for meditation.
36:13
Yeah.
36:14
I know, like, even against the religion, if you really look
36:16
into it, like yoga meditation, those are all things that are
36:18
like that you're not supposed to be doing.
36:19
You know, and I felt like, like the, the greatest power that
36:23
I was able to have for myself is just to learn and understand
36:26
everything.
36:27
You know, because if not, then you won't be afraid.
36:29
Now you understand, you understand and you can make your own
36:33
decision from a place of power instead of just listening to
36:36
what other people have to say because all of the answers are
36:38
within, you know what I mean?
36:39
Like literally no one else can.
36:41
And I think people forget that meditation is prayer.
36:45
Like I said, just prayer is a different word.
36:46
Prayer.
36:47
You sit down, you're in silence and you're speaking to whoever
36:50
whatever source meditation is the same thing.
36:52
You're sitting in silence and you're praying and you're asking
36:55
for things and you're talking to somebody and you're listening
36:57
whatever it is.
36:58
Like I sit on the ocean and I sit for 20 minutes with silence
37:01
and I listen and that's the same thing.
37:04
And then I also can pray, pray on my knees at the church for 30
37:07
minutes and I listen.
37:08
So it's just like people misconstrue these words just because
37:11
like meditation, prayer, it's all one, everyone just learned
37:14
it in different ways.
37:15
And you can like when you meditate, you can use like a, you can
37:18
meditate on that mantra.
37:20
And our men basically mean the same thing.
37:22
And I like to say, um I heard a quote somewhere not mean, I don't
37:25
like to say, well, I like to say it, but I heard a quote that says
37:28
prayer is talking to God and meditation is listening because
37:31
meditation is quiet in the mind.
37:33
So you're able to hear God and prayer is, of course, we're talking
37:36
to God, you know.
37:37
So, ok, so people that are spiritual that aren't religious
37:41
when they do meditate, what are they?
37:42
What do you think people are thinking about?
37:44
Like because there are people that are spiritual that don't
37:46
maybe necessarily believe in, you know, God, the God that
37:49
Christians or Catholics believe when they are listening
37:52
what are they listening to like their inner selves?
37:54
Like who they are you?
37:57
Oh, that is.
37:57
So for me to just sit there and not think of anything and it just
38:01
be a blank space means that it comes to you.
38:03
You need, you need the most, I swear, swear for 20 minutes and
38:09
not think of anything.
38:11
No, not just white.
38:13
You think, but you're not having thoughts of jumbled thoughts
38:17
and you can't have a moment of just peaceful.
38:19
It's being aware of those being aware of the thoughts and letting
38:22
them kind of go by without you.
38:24
And on that, the biggest thing is becoming the observer of
38:29
the thoughts because a lot of times we attach ourselves to
38:32
the thoughts we're having, we're having a bad day, like you
38:34
say, oh, I'm having a bad day, but it's literally a thought
38:37
that is coming by your mind.
38:39
So in meditation, you become detached and you start to see
38:42
oh my mind is just thinking if you're late at, if you're sleeping
38:45
at night or just laying in bed and you're having all of these
38:48
anxious thoughts about life and everything.
38:50
You with meditation and with regular consistency, you start
38:53
to see you are the one observing and the awareness behind the
38:58
mind activity, whatever is happening in your body.
39:01
And that's, that's the power, you know that that's when you
39:03
become detached and you start to see that you, you're way more
39:07
than your mind and your body in the situation.
39:09
Like there's more to you than all of that and that you're not
39:12
that yeah, it's so true.
39:13
And I would definitely agree with the bodies that we have.
39:15
Now, this is us in physical form.
39:17
But truthfully there is something so much more powerful and
39:20
something that I feel like we live on forever, which is your
39:23
soul, which is like your, your, your even like the consciousness
39:26
that we have.
39:27
I feel like there's, there's something so special to speak
39:30
on consciousness, the fact that we're able to have this conversation
39:33
be aware and to think that's not something that I feel like
39:36
science or the brain works like this can ever really explain
39:41
And again, like people are spiritual, you believe in a source
39:43
in the universe, you know, whatever it is that, you know, you
39:46
believe in and that makes you feel peaceful.
39:48
It's, it's so crazy because again, like, I just only believe
39:51
science can only go so far.
39:52
Science can only go so far, at least for me.
39:55
And Yeah, exactly.
39:57
And how did your life change when you became aware and your
40:01
awareness and your consciousness?
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Oh my God, completely, like 100% my whole life changed.
40:07
Um I mean, for the better, you know, I was struggling with depression
40:11
and anxiety and also like my career and was such a big part of
40:15
me because what I do for a living is what I do all day every day
40:18
So it had to be something super meaningful.
40:20
It had to be something that I really loved and I felt like I could
40:23
be of service, you know, and to me, meditation has been the
40:27
key that opened me up in so many different ways.
40:29
I mean, just patience overall, but just knowing that, you
40:33
know, just being in alignment, wherever you are, you're just
40:35
happy even though you don't know where you're going even though
40:37
you don't know what's to come for.
40:39
You, you're happy to be here, you know, and you're enjoying
40:42
it.
40:42
Do you ever judge your past for not knowing any better?
40:46
Because, I mean, like, I mean, knowing any better and your
40:48
subjective and she was in the military?
40:50
Yeah.
40:50
Do you ever judge some of the decisions you made before you
40:53
became spiritual?
40:55
Um, I don't, I mean, sometimes I have regrets about being in
40:58
the army and like, well, because it's not such a healthy environment
41:02
you know, and there's a lot of war is just ugly and things like
41:05
that.
41:05
But it's also a part of my journey and I'm grateful for every
41:09
single step in the journey.
41:10
That's so crazy because you see you now you feel you're beautiful
41:13
you have beautiful energy and you know, you're super well
41:16
spoken and just to imagine you in the army even that I can't
41:21
see it.
41:22
I sure you're a bad ass but being of service, right?
41:25
In both ways, the rest of the country and now you're being of
41:27
service to the people, right?
41:29
So you wanted to be of service.
41:30
That was your goal.
41:31
Yeah.
41:31
Always I think since I was a little girl, I, I'm sure you guys
41:34
feel the same way.
41:35
I could see it like you always just know there's something
41:38
that God wants you to do, right?
41:40
There's something more and you know, there's something for
41:42
you for sure.
41:43
Wow.
41:44
Really want to feel these lessons are teaching me.
41:47
And so for me, marijuana in that sense helps me out.
41:50
I haven't tried mushrooms, but I am interested.
41:54
I want to do a mushroom trip but I hear that you have to go with
41:57
the right people.
41:58
I mean, I don't even know where to get it.
41:59
Me neither.
42:00
My Jessica, my cousin, I tried, you know, meditation and I
42:07
really looked into all of that stuff.
42:09
I want to say this was in 2017 and still I dealt with so much,
42:13
you know, every morning.
42:14
Actually, before work, I would sit there and, you know, meditate
42:16
which was try to clear your mind.
42:18
I'd put on meditation sounds and I would lay and it did help
42:20
me for actually a while.
42:22
I'm like, I feel so much calmer, like I feel, I felt like all
42:25
these things.
42:26
Um but again, like every single person is going to different
42:30
things are going to help different people.
42:31
But I think you're meditating, you talk about running a lot
42:34
and I think meditation is just doing something that doesn't
42:36
you don't think about like, you know, work or I have to do this
42:39
I just use this in your body, just breathing.
42:43
And so I think that your meditation, there's different forms
42:46
you know, that is so true.
42:48
Actually, the way that I had, I had personally shifted from
42:52
you know, doing more so the spirit spiritual stuff into more
42:56
like a faith based thing as I was running.
42:58
Actually in the middle of the morning, it was still dark and
43:00
out of nowhere.
43:02
I wasn't searching for it.
43:03
I wasn't seeking it in the middle of this run that I was doing
43:06
down the beach.
43:07
Nobody was there.
43:08
I felt like wind hit my face.
43:09
It was so fresh, it felt so good.
43:11
And I just felt there's no other word to describe it for me.
43:15
It was just God speaking to me and saying you've been lost.
43:19
I feel like you've been lost personally.
43:20
And I lifted up my hands like this.
43:22
And I just started saying, oh my God, like I don't want to say
43:25
like, oh my God.
43:26
But literally, it was like God, like I, I feel you, I feel you
43:31
talking to me.
43:32
I fell to my knees and I was just like this is, and people would
43:35
always say I've never felt God's presence and I didn't.
43:37
And I guess for, you know, anybody that's in spirituality
43:40
I never felt what you guys would call maybe like the creator
43:43
or whatever it might be for some people.
43:45
It's not, I'm trying to respect, you know, however, you know
43:47
other people may identify this presence as for me, it was
43:50
1000% God, it was undeniable to me.
43:53
And um yeah, since then I knew, OK, what people speak about
43:57
when they feel like the power of the Holy Spirit, like this
44:01
feeling was so undeniable for me.
44:04
And that's what I do sometimes, you know, when I do talk to God
44:07
I say God, I just wish you revealed yourself to more people
44:10
because it is absolutely one of the most beautiful feelings
44:13
in the world.
44:14
And just like, I'm sure other people that do other methods
44:16
in practice, they also feel like that sense of, you know, so
44:20
I feel like mine is when I'm right, I just am away from everyone
44:22
The one time I get to be alone is in the shower.
44:24
So I just be like, oh my God, finally some just by myself, thoughts
44:28
and then when I'm writing, when I'm literally doing, I don't
44:30
know if you use ladies in the movie Soul.
44:32
Yeah.
44:32
So you know, when they're in that space of creating, that's
44:36
when yeah, the zone, the blue zone.
44:37
That's when I feel the best.
44:39
But I don't have a lot of opportunities to get there.
44:41
Sometimes I'm always moving around.
44:42
I have a question because I feel like you ladies, I feel like
44:45
everyone's much better at what they're doing.
44:47
There are people like me like, you know, when I used to meditate
44:49
and they'd be like, oh you got to breathe the right way, you
44:51
got to put your hand the right way.
44:52
What do you say to people that just don't know how to participate
44:56
in these rituals the right way?
44:57
Like even like I will feel embarrassed to go back to church
45:00
and I forgot to a chance to put the communion and I was like,
45:04
I'm going to be embarrassed.
45:05
So, like, what do you say to people that are afraid to participate
45:08
and really want to be, like, get back into religion or do spirituality
45:11
and don't know the right way to do it without getting, I feel
45:14
like there's a lot of judgment sometimes when you don't know
45:17
Yeah.
45:17
Like, for you personally, like your journey, how did you start
45:20
Did you start reading books?
45:21
Did you start following like everything?
45:23
I think the first thing that started for me was just um I love
45:26
courses and just studying things from start to finish.
45:28
So that's when I started to learn meditation and then get certified
45:32
to become a teacher.
45:33
And then that opened me up to yoga and that opened me up to um
45:37
Han Yoda and his connections to Jesus Christ and Christianity
45:41
and how that correlates with one another.
45:43
And it just kind of started taking off from there, you know
45:46
and I started to develop my own things.
45:47
But in the beginning, I was also doing like the Florida water
45:50
I was doing a lot of crystals.
45:52
A lot of you have.
45:53
Yes, I have an what does look like?
45:56
Um out of my vision board, I have uh usually flowers.
46:02
I have all of the gurus of the self reality.
46:04
The one thing that's all unfolded.
46:07
I, I love that place, the place called self realization lake
46:10
that is in, in the Pacific Palace.
46:12
That's where a part of Gandhi's ashes are there.
46:16
And Yoda made it for anyone to come to meditate.
46:19
It's free.
46:20
It's beautiful.
46:21
There's a lake and swans and a church and a chap.
46:25
It's gorgeous.
46:27
If anyone wants to go visit, please do.
46:28
And I, yes, I recommend the lessons, studying the lessons
46:32
of the.
46:35
It's honestly the biggest life changing thing for me.
46:37
He teaches you how to really meditate and ask like God or you
46:42
know, like reveal yourself, reveal yourself, like really
46:45
command God to reveal himself to you.
46:47
And he will with patience and with patience and reverence
46:51
and a yearning and a craving to know that a craving to love him
46:55
to call for him.
46:56
And honestly, the biggest thing that changed is just the love
46:59
that you give to people, like the overflowing love that you
47:01
just have to give to everybody.
47:04
You know, because I feel like lately I've been taking advantage
47:06
of and I'm like, you know what?
47:07
This is a purpose, my purpose is to be helpful.
47:11
So I shouldn't feel a type of way because I, I feel like that's
47:14
a better perspective of I was just called to help other people
47:17
can't do that.
47:18
So I shouldn't feel like I'm being taken advantage of.
47:21
I like that help me without expecting anything in return,
47:25
right?
47:25
Wait until you alter, you have the saints, the saints, the
47:28
flower the vision board.
47:30
I burned some incense and, yeah, pretty much.
47:33
That's it.
47:34
I just keep it pretty simple.
47:35
Sometimes I have photos of my ancestors.
47:38
Ancestors.
47:39
Wait, what's your, like, your nationality background?
47:43
Because I feel like I feel like I don't have an ulcer but I do
47:46
have like candles.
47:47
But I know that one thing that me and my mom have been talking
47:50
a lot and we were like, should we start celebrating?
47:51
Is I think it's really dope.
47:54
I think sometimes when you're grieving, you just kind of like
47:57
you do a prayer or you do like, I forgot the name of it, but you
48:01
just wish the person to the next lifetime.
48:03
But I love how for deer every once a year you get to remember
48:06
everyone that has passed.
48:08
And I, I really, I do love that.
48:10
I wish, I wish that there was something like that in the Dominican
48:12
community, you know.
48:14
So you have your ancestors on your altar?
48:16
Yes, I do.
48:16
But I haven't done a altar.
48:19
I want to flowers and water.
48:22
What about you guys?
48:23
Do you guys have altars as well?
48:24
I just, when you walk into my room into my apartment, I have
48:27
a mirror.
48:28
I have two candles, a protection candle.
48:31
The Virgin Mary.
48:32
It's some other candle.
48:34
I don't know the name, but I know it means something good.
48:35
And then I have, I go to this bookshop called Nama State Bookshop
48:38
It's on Union.
48:39
Square.
48:39
And I have a, I think it's like a ray candle.
48:42
And this year I wanted to have stability in my life.
48:45
Stability in abundance.
48:46
Sometimes I would get like a money candle or whatever.
48:48
But I'm like, you know, I want something bigger than that.
48:50
I just want stability.
48:51
So that's just what I have there.
48:53
My crystal, my pie.
48:54
Right.
48:56
Good luck.
48:57
Oh, I was going to wear a ring.
48:58
Like, yeah.
48:58
And then that's it.
49:00
Like it's pretty, it's pretty simple.
49:02
But I do feel like I'm bad like I should have pictures of people
49:05
or something, you know, whatever you feel called to do.
49:09
What about in the morning?
49:11
What's your, your ritual when you wake up?
49:12
Uh when I wake up in the morning, I go straight into meditation
49:16
You know, I put on, I started wearing a white turban just to
49:19
kind of keep the energy of the crown because you, you know,
49:22
when you're meditating, you also want the energy to move up
49:24
through the spine and into your third eye.
49:27
Um So I put on a turban, I sit on my meditation for 20 minutes
49:30
and just, you know, just concentrate the, the key word is to
49:34
to learn how to concentrate on, on God and that energy within
49:39
you know, and how do you know your third eye open?
49:42
Like how would I know if my third eye is open?
49:44
I haven't had mine.
49:46
No, II I focus on the third and your third eye.
49:49
But I Yeah.
49:50
Yeah.
49:51
Oh, wow!
49:52
Ok.
49:52
So another thing I wanted to ask because we did, we were talking
49:55
about like third eyes and people consider maybe and I want
49:57
to know what you think because I feel like it is kind of attached
49:59
to spirituality which is doing mushrooms or like these psychedelics
50:03
that people do describe as like a spiritual journey.
50:05
And I do want to preface this by saying I have done mushrooms
50:08
mushrooms.
50:09
Yeah.
50:09
Last year for the first time I did it because I was going through
50:13
one of the worst depressions of my life.
50:16
I was so anxious.
50:17
I was just like a complete mess.
50:19
Sometimes I couldn't even get out of bed from how paralyzing
50:22
it was.
50:22
And I was trying to find ways that I and I had done my research
50:26
on mushrooms and it did say, OK, this is something that has
50:31
you know, proven to cure depression or anxiety.
50:34
People have seen studies on our PSD from maybe soldiers that
50:37
go to war.
50:38
So I did do it and it did give, it was the craziest experience
50:41
of my life.
50:42
Would I do it again?
50:43
Probably not.
50:44
I think at the time when I did feel super lost it made sense for
50:47
me.
50:47
And like you said, you have to explore and figure out what we
50:49
for you and I've found what honestly works for me.
50:52
And now I don't feel like I need to ever turn to psychedelics
50:55
again, you know, anymore.
50:57
But in that moment, right, we all go through our phases and
51:00
chapters and our moments.
51:01
Um, what, what do you think?
51:03
What do you think is the connection between spirituality
51:05
and things like psychedelics in my, I mean, I definitely smoke
51:09
a little marijuana.
51:12
Yeah.
51:13
And I definitely feel like when I'm studying my lessons, like
51:16
my, my Yoda lessons, uh, I like to smoke a little bit because
51:23
I feel like I can really absorb what I'm reading, you know,
51:26
because I don't want the words just to be words.
51:28
I really want to feel what these lessons are teaching me.
51:31
And so for me, marijuana in that sense helps me out.
51:34
I haven't tried mushrooms, but I am interested, I want to do
51:38
a mushroom trip but I hear that you have to go with the right
51:41
people.
51:41
I mean, I don't even know where to get it.
51:42
Me neither.
51:44
Jessica, my cousin.
51:49
But listen, I'm flying, we'll be out his name anyway.
51:56
But yeah, they do say that you have to have, like, I think they
51:59
call it a trip sitter, which is somebody that can really calm
52:03
me down because it is a very overwhelming experience.
52:07
And I did it actually alone.
52:08
I didn't want it to be, I'm doing this for the party or for it
52:11
to be like this turn up thing which some people can do.
52:14
Absolutely not.
52:15
Especially if it's your first time, I don't recommend doing
52:17
that because it's just, it is you feel something or you see
52:21
something or you're not exactly in, I don't even know how to
52:25
describe it.
52:26
You're not here, you're like somewhere else and it was, it's
52:29
super overwhelming.
52:30
So, being around the right people is everything.
52:32
If not, if you're not going to do that, but you do marijuana
52:36
and other, other, other things that I just, I get of getting
52:41
my brain like alternative.
52:43
I do like the wrong drug.
52:45
That's why I don't do that.
52:45
And I also feel like you have to be in almost a right state of
52:48
mind in a safe space for sure because I know when I was, when
52:53
I was depressed, I couldn't handle marijuana at all.
52:55
I felt like it just enhanced everything.
52:59
But when I'm in a good point in my life, I feel like a little bit
53:03
a little because you've grown so much and because you've found
53:08
so much peace and spirituality, your circle, I'm sure has
53:10
changed.
53:11
Is that something you're able to talk about with your new friends
53:13
or even some of your old friends or?
53:15
Yeah.
53:15
Yeah.
53:15
I think when you, I think as you evolve and you raise your own
53:19
vibration, you start attracting the right people that can
53:22
meet you at that wavelength.
53:23
You know what I mean?
53:24
So all of my friends, um beautiful people, people, heart centered
53:27
God, centered people that I never thought I would have and
53:30
even meeting you ladies here, I think it's definitely a right
53:33
vibe.
53:33
So that's so true, honestly.
53:36
Yeah, and people can only meet you where they've met themselves
53:39
So like you said, you're going to attract people that are riding
53:42
along on that same wavelength or that same belief system as
53:45
you.
53:45
That's amazing.
53:45
And also with your like man, like props to you guys, so many
53:48
different versions of yourself that you guys have been able
53:50
to grow together.
53:51
That is a serious, serious, serious goals.
53:55
And personally, it's been so nice being able to talk to you
53:58
have such a beautiful, like I said, beautiful energy and I
54:00
love that.
54:01
Although not everybody here will have the same approach or
54:04
the same belief systems.
54:05
And even if we stand firm in our beliefs, we're able to have
54:08
that conversation.
54:09
I feel like that is seriously lacking in this society.
54:12
It is so much, you know, my way you're wrong.
54:14
And if you don't believe what I believe you're ignorant, it's
54:16
like, ok, let me ask you questions and you ask me questions
54:18
and it's like such a beautiful conversation.
54:20
So we're super thankful for you coming on here and being open
54:23
and having these like amazing conversations where we can
54:26
definitely learn from each other.
54:27
You're amazing.
54:28
I love your energy.
54:29
Also, I know you're a business woman, you're working on things
54:31
as well and you're kind of merging your passions and what you
54:34
have found into being able to, you know, express it to the world
54:38
So tell me a little bit about what you're working on.
54:39
I know you're working on something.
54:40
Yeah, I've launched Sweet Soul, which is now has transformed
54:44
into a mindfulness company.
54:45
So my intention is to bring meditation and yoga to communities
54:49
of people of color, especially because I feel like there's
54:52
not a lot of representation in that community.
54:54
So I'm excited just to kind of bring them more.
54:57
Yeah, make sure you guys check it out and yeah, make sure you
54:59
guys follow her on social media for more information on that
55:02
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